Redemption Citadel

No Longer Enough

  Okay, here we go, the final chapter. For some reason it doesn't feel quite good enough but it was the ending I always planned so...

Disclaimer: I do not own the song used, it is Husavik from the movie The Story of Fire Saga

Before reading you may be interested to know that the sister fic A Second Chance which follows the minor Characters of Sophia and Edmund (with appearances from Varian, Eugene, the Brotherhood, Fait & Pete) has been completed, the final chapter features Varian calming Sophia before her wedding and Eugene helping Edmund prepare.

Also, there is a shower smut one-shot that is a missing scene from the Time to Heal chapter of this – and that is called A Proper Goodbye.

Though I am going on an upload hiatus after this (to do some proper planning for my next series of fictions – Masquerade, The Price Paid, and The Death and Rebirth of Eugene Fitzherbert), I'm open to any questions about the fiction, unfortunately I can't take requests at the moment, but ask me anything else.

Finally, thank you all for reading, thanks for the kudos, and for the reviews it's been an absolute delight to read them and has really helped me grow in confidence and continue to write.

Please enjoy the final chapter. 

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No Longer Enough

Cassandra looked over at the shape of Varian leaning against the railings of the ship. She felt nauseous, tired, but more than that, she felt so lonely. It was all her fault; all of this was her choice. Perhaps tonight she would tell him, perhaps tonight she could do something to try and heal them.

She walked up to him, resting her hand on the small of his back, feeling the warmth of his skin under the thin shirt. He looked up at her, his face closed to her, something hanging in the air between them. She couldn't bear to lose him, yet she couldn't find the words. Maybe tomorrow, maybe the light of the day would make things easier.

She bent to kiss him on the cheek, feeling the rough stubble against her lips.

"I'm going to bed." She said.

Varian leaned towards her, his mouth opening for a moment as if he were about to say something, but then he straightened himself, and his face went blank again.

"Sleep well Cass."

She turned away from him, feeling a now familiar ache in her heart as she walked away. Something made her stop though, she turned back to face him, watching as he stared into the silent water.

She could remember that night five years ago, the night when he had proposed to her. The water, a different part of the world, but still as dark and still.

"Cassandra, I never actually asked, do you want to get married?""

She paused and turned to look at him.

"I mean... to me, I'm asking."

"I uh..." She froze, unable to say anything, unable to really think of anything to say.

"It's open, it'll always be open, if you ever decide you do want to. Just say." Varian said eventually.

Cassandra swallowed and nodded, trying to find her voice.