Tom Holland Imagines

In Silence

SongFic.

Warnings : Depression, Panic attack and sad.

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Third person's POV.

Seems like Holland Family aren't God's
favorite... If they are, they wouldn't have been going through this. They lost their child, Y/N wasn't even able to look at her , Not even for the first time or the last... Their baby's birth was a premature birth, Sad that the baby couldn't make it... Y/N is in depression since then.
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Y/N's POV.

Tom has gone to the grocery store, You are sitting On the bed, Thinking about your life, Nothing good has happened in your life except your times with Tom... You won't forgive yourself because of whatever happened , even tho if it wasn't because of you, deep down you knew, If You had Cared enough your child might have been here, with you... But you don't deserve to live, you killed your child by not caring? thats what your depression made you think, You  got up and walked in the bathroom, Locking the door, You looked at yourself in the bathroom mirror.You wanted to die right then and there. You couldn't help but hate yourself more and more every damn time you looked at yourself and thought about what happened weeks ago. You took a cup that was resting on the sink and threw it on the mirror. You shouted in pain, The pain that was in your heart,You weren't able to breath all of a sudden, You were shaking, trembling, you couldn't catch your breath, you started hearing voices like you are useless, you are cruel, you deserve to die.
“Stop” you yelled.
“STOPP”
You head footsteps coming, “Y/NNN” Tom shouted, “Y/N open the door.”

{Play the song if you want? Song starts here)}

In silence, no one answers
But I still hear your voice.

You were trembling, shaking, shouting for help, you needed help but you weren't able to let them in to help you, You couldn't hear anyone except Tom. He wanted to help, but you were afraid you'd hurt him.

If you'd only come hold me
If you'd only come.

You tried some methods Tom taught you to calm you down if you were having a panic attack, You slowly got control of yourself, You sat near the bathroom door, resting your head on the door, Catching yourself... It was a moment of silence.. “Tom.. Will.. You.. Hold.. Me? ”
You spoke softely.
“Only if you let me in? ” He whispered, loud enough for you to hear.

Tears Flow, Sorry I'm Late Again.

You opened the door, To let him in, you were still sitting on the floor, He sat beside you and picked you up, Your head resting in the crook of his neck, Tears flowing from your tired eyes, You were broke.. “Y/N, I.. I"m sorry,I couldn't be here to hold you,to help you,I'm sorry”

Let them fall, Sorry I'm Late again.

You were letting your tears fall, you felt like it was okay to let them fall, It was the only thing you could do, keeping everything inside wasn't going to work any longer.. “Y/N, I'm Sorry , You have to go through this, We have to go through this, It isn't your fault, I'm sorry to be late, to hold you” He spoke softly.

In darkness, it's getting hard
Getting hard to stand.

“Tom.... It's hard, I.. I.. Can't, I.. I.. Am not able to.. Stand, Every.. Everything is dark,No..No one can see me..No one..can hear..me..” You whispered, Loud enough for him to hear,crying.. You were weak.
“I'll help you, I'm always here” he kissed your forehead. He picked you up, carrying you to bed.

If you hear me, if you see me
Won't you come closer?

He let you sit down on the bed, “Tom.. If you hear me, Won't you come closer?, won't you help me...? I.. I'm sorry”

He came closer, He hugged you tightly, You couldn't stop yourself from sobbing, you wanted it all out.

Tears flow
Sorry I'm late again.

You were crying, You wanted to hold on, You never wanted to let go of him.. It felt safe to be in his arms, No one can harm you.. All the voices were gone.

Let them fall
Sorry I'm late again.

Sobbing in his arms, you let it all out, “It's okay Y/N , let your tears fall, you can't keep it all in, It wasn't your fault, Don't blame yourself”he spoke softly into your ear.

Can you just tell me once
You'll never leave me?
Afraid of losing you.

“Can you tell me that you'll never leave me? I can't lose you, I'm afraid of losing you.. ” you spoke, You were still sobbing. “I will never ever leave you, I'll be here, with you, always, I love you.. ”He said, He let you lay on the bed, Cuddled up with him.

Will you just lay with me?
There will be no fears
If you only stay with me.

You were laying on the bed cuddled up with Tom, everything felt better. “Y/N, Just Lay with me, There won't be any fears , Any voices, If you'll only stay with me and let me in to help you” he spoke above a whisper.

Bare your soul to me
Here I stand for you
Stop crying your heart
Days will come for you, for us.

“You have to tell me how you feel?, You have to talk to me, you can't keep everything inside, Stop blaming yourself,
You will have your good days, We will have our good days, I love you” he said.
“I love you too”You replied.

In silence, no one answers
But I still hear your voice.
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You knew, In Silence,When none will answer, He'll always be there for you, Listening to you, Watching you, Helping you, You loved him with all your heart, He loved you with all his heart, And you both knew, You will get your good days and overcome everything only if you both stay together. You both have to help eachother and you both will.
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I hope you guys like this, It's My first SongFic, And I guess It's pretty good? Let me know if you guys like it, Thank you.