The Pretenders

Hold Me Down

When look back on the past you can't help but wonder what was going through your mind. I thought why did i let him break me down. Why did i show my weaknesses to him. Why couldn't i mask the pain. Was i really that weak was i really that broken. But then i realized that my past was overwhelming me again. When i was younger i always thought everyone was against me except my bestfriend Kavion. He was a darkskin boy with puffy hair. He was there for me. I could always cry to him and vent. He was the brother i never wanted. But we did everything together we even was heart broken together. But we had each other and that was all that mattered. Well it was always the for of us me,Kavion, Channel, Rayleen. They were the only people i could trust with everything i was going through. We had our on little family. And at the time they were all i needed.

Andreas

I hate seeing my baby so down and crying. It pains me inside and it reminds me of our child hood. I know what i did was wrong but i hated that i couldn't see her when i wanted to just see her everday. I started to become depressed and sad. When i needed to see her i never could so i started talking to chas then. When we started getting close she kissed me and we developed feelings. So i broke up with Aalyiah but what i didn't know was that she was coming back just for me. When i seen her all my feelings came rushing back to me.

So now when i see her hurt i try to do everything to make her feel better. I don't wanna go down that rode when she was depressed. Yeah i knew about it cause Kavion wanted to fight me cause i hurt her. Then i seen her when me and chas were kissing. I seen her look at us and start crying and running. I felt bad about it. Then i seen her with bandages on her arm and i knew what she was doing. And it hurt me to know that i was the cause of her cutting herself. I never told her that i knew about her cutting cause i didn't want to hurt her. So when she was crying saying she didn't want to be alone. I felt like my body went numb i didn't want her to think i was abandoning her. I love waking up to her. I love the face she makes when i ask for a kiss when she hasn't brushed her teeth. She is my world i love her with everything in me. So when they get back from Atlanta i am going to make it up to her. I need her to have a stress free day. When all i really need from her is to provide me more kids. And to hold me down...................................................................