Behind Closed Doors {H.G&S.M}

Chapter 11 The Lonely Hour

Shawn must've walked home alone, I don't blame him. He probably feels the way I did when Hayes cheated on me.

I started walking down the street in the opposite direction of my grandma's house, face it, it's not like I have anything to lose.

I already lost both of the sunshines in my life, in the matter of 10 minutes.

No one understands and no one ever will.

I never wanted to hurt him.

I never wanted to hurt Hayes either.

I just couldn't choose.

If you looked at them both and had to pick, could you?

If you had to look one of them in the eyes, and tell him you don't want to go out, doesn't just the thought of that break you into a million pieces?

If one day, I apologize, do I deserve their forgiveness?

Would one of them even forgive me?

Should I even apologize?

What am I even apologizing for?

What about Alex?

Should I even forgive her?

She made a promise and then broke it.

Can I just forget about this whole thing and run away?

I don't normally have these types of thoughts, but my two best friends,(Hayes and Shawn), don't want anything to do with me.

I found a play ground about a half a mile down the road, it took me about an hour to get there. At the play ground, there was not a soul in sight, but that's okay, I need some time to think.