But since we're going to die here

Ahem, Ahem!

(A/N): Hanji is concerned about Levi...She gets Eren to go talk to him...

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Mikasa's sitting on her bed, staring at me. I'm resting on my back, playing with the small feather I always keep on me. People seem to think it's because of the "wings of freedom", that I think this is for luck or something. It's the only piece of Levi I can keep with me at all times for now. Nobody knows about us except Hanji.

"Are we going to talk about this?" Mikasa asks right before Hanji bursts in.

Thank god for Hanji. I get up and place the feather in my pocket.

"Eren, dear. I'd like to discuss some experiments. Privately." Hanji says, eyeing the door. "Would you mind joining me outside?"

"In fact, I'll follow you right now." I say, glad to escape from Mikasa.

***

The moon is rising as we step foot outside of the old castle.

"So was it really about me or was it about Levi and me?" I ask when the door closes. "Because I'm not going to answer anything without him around."

"Oh no dear, you misunderstood. Look." She says pointing at the roof with her finger.

A shadow. Someone's sitting on the roof, looking at the sky.

"Is that...?"

She nods and walks to the stables. I follow her.

"Yes it's Levi, I thought you should go see him, he doesn't seem alright."

"I'm sorry, Hanji, I thought you wanted..."

"It's okay, dear. Have this."

She hands me a set of 3DM gear. Luckily I had not taken off my harness at the end of the day. I place a hand on her shoulder.

"Thank you Hanji."

She nods and leaves. As soon as she's inside, I look around to be sure no one's there. I press the triggers and the wires grip on the castle's walls, bringing me up to the roof. Levi slightly turns his head but doesn't move.

"Oi, Brat!" He mutters.

"Heichou, what are you doing?" I ask, sitting beside him.

I put my hand on his thigh and let my head fall down on his shoulder as he wraps his arm around me.

"I'm just looking at the stars."

I notice just now, how clear the sky is tonight. I assume it's due to the fact that it's been raining most of the day and that the clouds are now completely gone. The moon reflects on Levi's pure ivory skin and even though I'm tempted to kiss him, I don't. I know he's not well.

"What are you thinking about?" I ask.

He slides a bit closer to me and sighs before answering:

"I'm thinking of everyone I loved in a way or another. They all died."

"Levi..."

I turn my head and see his clenched jaw and the tears running down his cheeks. He's definitely pissed off that he's crying, but he is. He gazes far away in front of him. Either in an attempt to focus on something and forget the tears or because he doesn't have the strength to look at me as he speaks those words.

"I can't lose you too. I can't get through this anymore. I can't be broken again, I won't be able to handle it. I think you should've gone to the MP's."

I sit up straight, letting go of him, but he doesn't move. The tears keep falling as he looks right into the moon. I try not to be offended by what he said, I really do, but my short temper gets ahead of me. I am angry that he said that. What was he thinking?

"LEVI! All of this would've never happened if I had not came here. Do you regret it? Are you saying that you wish this wasn't happening?"

He frowns and closes his eyes, letting heavy breaths out as his teeth remain tightly clenched together. I'm about to speak again when he finally answers:

"Eren, that's not what I mean. I love you, you know that's true. Only, if you went to the MPs at first, I wouldn't feel scared that I could fail to protect you. I don't give a damn anymore about humanity's last hope. What I care about is you, Eren."

"Then stop saying this nonsense. I love you. I'm here. I sure as hell am not leaving, I'm going to kill them all, I promised. Remember?"

"Yes sure, again with the titans. But what about me? What about us? I lost too many people, I can't lose you too."

He looks at me with pleading eyes. It's the first time ever that I see him as an innocent, fragile human being and it's breaking my heart.

"If I had to pick between you, and killing the titans, you know I'd choose you! I already told you, you're my reason to live. Don't you ever forget that. I'm not going anywhere." I say reassuringly.

He smiles through his tears and I move closer to hug him. He falls in my arms.

"Promise me you won't leave." He says. "Swear it on my life, because if you die, I'm leaving too."

"I promise. On our lives. Your soul has suffered enough and I won't let it happen again."

A few minutes later, he says:

"Damn Brat! What have you done to me? I used to have only one mood, what the hell is this?"

I grin.

"That's love, Levi!"

"Whatever." He smirks.

I turn his chin towards me and plant a kiss on his salty lips.

"Ahem, Ahem!" Someone coughs.

We separate so quickly that I almost fall from the roof. Levi grabs my wrist right before I do.

"You promised." He shouts as he pulls me back on the rooftop.

I laugh and he smiles. Then I look behind us and notice a shadow. At first I think it's Mikasa and I'm already worried about how this conversation will turn out, but then I realize it's Armin. I wonder how long he's been there.

"So, when is it that we are going to actually CHOOSE who's the next to know?" Levi says to me.

I can't help but giggle at his remark.

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(A/N): Poor Levi...so uncomfortable...lol... This is a bit OOC, I know but I needed the lovey dovey stuff in my life... mmmk?