Am I Really Needed? (Dark Side Logan) COMPLETED

I

Logan's POV:

I walk back in my room after the recent events that just happened in the real world. Of course the seat, or should call him Janus now, pulled me away and put me in the sideline as always, but this is final straw; in a metaphorical sense at least. I had enough of the other sides pushing me around, I don't no why Patton Roman, and Virgil are the quote on quote light sides. I can see Patton's side of it, but it starts getting a little bit more complex when you go to Roman's side. His own twin brother was a dark side he should at least have the tiniest bit empathy, at least I believe so, but I'm not Thomas' morality that's Patton's job. I don't know why I feel this immense amount of what I think is rage building up inside me, I just know I haven't felt this before. The closest way I could think of describing it, would be as if you're watching craft is getting burnt right in front of your face, f****** crofters getting burnt, right in front of your f****** face. This is what I have now, this is all the I see. Whenever I look at anyone else, I just see crofters is getting burnt.

I hate this feeling so much! it feels like I'm just nothing anymore, I don't even think they look at me the same way as they used to. I think they used to actually care, scratch that I know they used to, now on the other hand is, absolutely no idea, but most likely they hate my f****** guts. I mean, why wouldn't they? I'm basically everything to hate in the side. They don't think I have emotions they do this, they do that. I do this they all hate my guts, it's an endless cycle, one that I think will never end and that hurts.

I just wish I could explain in a way what that but goes on in my head. I don't understand why anything happens it just does now I've lost all power in the mind Palace, I can barely make my own room appear whenever I want it to. I remember years ago when, I used to have import on Thomas is life how when he is being University, I actually helped now look at me. I'm just a useless pile of logic that doesn't know what the f*** they are doing the help their host's life, and inevitably making the hosts life worse. Some days I just wish I could call into my room take up all the power I have left and just collapsing on myself with the room included. I'll if only back would happen.

You know some days I think to myself, I try going back in time and my own head, trying to figure out where I went wrong in Thomas' life, I still can't pinpoint it it's frustrating it's impure hating, it makes me want to change. I'm not talking about a good type of change like change it for the better, or losing weight, I'm talking about real dangerous change.

I realise what I want to do now I want to become a dark side I've read several theories on this myself and even ask Virgil a couple of times on his opinion, but every time I try he just brings it down and wishes that I would never to speak of it again. Of course this didn't stop me the first couple of times, but after that I kept realising him really didn't want to talk to me but he never wants to talk to me but that's the way life goes like this is how we being hated by everyone and seemingly not having a purpose anymore wow that's even chart for Remus is level of intrusive thoughtlessness where was like?

Yeah, and then I'll have someone like an someone to relate to but then again Remus this might even hate me at this point. I'm the only one that can somewhat calm him down? I don't really know how to describe what I did in that one episode, but I didn't know what did it I just follow my gut, maybe this would be a good reason for me to become a dark side. Remus is now alone, and Janus has become a so-called light side he's about it sleep in my room for a little bit, before Roman can build me my own room for myself again, but if Roman doesn't have to go in the room for me, I would make it better and if I went down to the Dark Side, and Remus could help me.

I don't know what about this idea is so intriguing, I just want to continue it but I don't know how to. I just really wish I could help someone anyone if it's not Thomas if it's not Roman not Virgil not even Patton, then I may as well not even try. Remus might be my last alternative...

I just hope this works...