come over when you're sober - dreamnap

honda - david shawty

i don't gotta flex i just wanna
if she tells me she loves me i'm a goner
baby you always so hot just like a sauna
and baby i want you but i don't wanna

11:46 pm
xxx

i'm already tipsy. the bass shakes the floorboards i'm standing on. a girl falls off the living room table, breaking the tall heel of her shoe. she lands on top of a pack of guys, crowd cheering as they grab her and help her stand straight. these people sure know how to provide entertainment for lone wolves like me.

i steal a look at the boy from earlier. we've been giving each other glances for half an hour now. i've really only left my designated spot a few times to grab more drink, so he's gotten plenty of opportunities to check me out. deep inside i'm hoping he thinks i'm as pretty as i think he is.

cause holy fuck, is he pretty.

a group of friends start to disperse from in front him, and i immediately see my chance. if i don't make contact now, i don't believe i ever will.

but wasn't my plan to get wasted? get wasted and nothing else. no conversations, no pointless hookups, nothing at all.

oh well, looks like we're going for plan b.

he initially doesn't see me waltzing over, smooth as anyone could be. the lack of light makes it hard. i slide up right next to him, mimicking his confident stance and clearing my throat to grab his attention. he jerks slightly at the unexpected noise, soon craning his head towards me and meeting my eyes.

"hey," i greet, speaking loudly because of the music.
"hi," he says back, sounding somewhat surprised, "do i know you?"
"i uh, i don't think so. i'm clay. i believe we go to the same school."

i reach my hand out for him to shake.

"oh, yeah i've seen you around. i'm nick by the way."

he takes it with minimum hesitation. his hand is warm, and a little smaller than mine.

"why are you here all alone?" i ask.
"honestly? i was completely ditched by my friends. don't know where they went."
"what? that's plain shitty. friends don't do that."

"yeah, i know," he sighs, looking down at his feet, "they've been acting strange lately. feels like i'm just a nuisance to them."
"well then they're idiots and not worth your time."

"they're the only friends i have though! i don't wanna be all alone. and my girl is gone now too. she left me when she found out i was bisexual."
"fuck man, i'm so sorry."

i pull him into a comforting hug. he seems startled at first, but quickly melts into it and hugs me back. the heat from his body and the faint smell of his cologne is making me tingly and nervous. i can't take my mind off of those words. bisexual. he's bi. though wouldn't it be nasty of me to make a move when he's just been through a breakup?

stop. i've never cared about such things before. i jump in, do my deed, and leave forever. it shouldn't be different this time.

but it is. to be truthful i'm scared. i'm scared of hurting this boy that i barely know.

he lets go of me, still keeping me fairly close.

"you seem really cool. if you'd wanna be friends, that'd be-"
"of course i wanna be your friend! you seem nice too," i smile, taking a sip of my drink.
"thank you so much.."

colors from the flashing lights reflect in his honey eyes. from this distance i can observe his features even more. i can see the finer details of his face. every little prick of stubble, every bump in his skin. even his small imperfections are pretty to me. they make him unique. i can't help but stare, hoping he doesn't think i'm a freak. it takes a while for either of us to break the silence.

"do you wanna smoke with me?" he wonders, sliding a bag of weed out of his pocket and excitedly shaking it.

wow. i really thought this guy couldn't get more perfect.

"of course i do."

the corners of his mouth curve upwards into a cute grin. he grabs ahold of my wrist, pulling me away to someplace quiet. deep inside i get this feeling. this feeling that tonight will turn out way different from what i had planned. for better or for worse.

xxx

she gon suck my dick in a honda
i think that i love her i don't wanna
she gon suck my dick in a honda
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