come over when you're sober - dreamnap

gonna love ya - avicii

i'm gonna love ya
like no one could
make your heart feel the way it should

2:31 am
xxx

the crowd is dispersing more and more as the time approaches three am. i can finally breathe again. my legs are tired, exhausted even, yet i could keep going all night. especially if it meant staying with nick.

we've been inseparable ever since our first kiss. he's kept me close, and i've kept him even closer. our arms raised in the air, we've sung, danced together, laughed together and partied like we won't see another day.

i watch him from a few feet away, chatting to someone he knows. despite the suffocatingly hot air in the room i almost feel cold without him right here by my side. sweat drips down my forehead, but i still long for that warming feeling he radiates. there's something special about it.

maybe he truly is something, someone special, or maybe i'm just horny.

the confusing, conflicting thoughts come creeping fast when i stop moving, and they're way too much for my drunken mind to handle. i try diverting my attention to anything else. there are so many possible things i could be thinking of, or looking at in this cramped space, yet i can't shift my focus.

my brain tells me nick, nick, nick. please hurry up nick, stop talking to whoever that is. they're irrelevant. just get over here and kiss me nick.

i chuckle at myself when i realize what i've become. i've become a needy, attention-seeking puppy, walking around whimpering with his tail between his legs. that horny and desperate huh? i guess that must be it.

"clay!"

the ecstatic shout cuts right through the music. my head shoots up and i'm all ears. i could recognize that boy's voice anywhere i go at this point.

he stumbles over to me, gracefully taking my hand and bringing it up to his mouth to give it a soft kiss. it's so cute that i think i might pass out on the spot.

"may i have a dance?"

the pleading look he gives me is sweet like cotton candy and marshmallows. how could i ever say no?

"of course, m'lady."

he giggles, placing his hands behind my neck and snuggling up to me. my arms naturally snake around his waist without hesitation. sandro cavazza's familiar vocals take over, motivating nick to start moving. even though the song is upbeat and feel-good, we're pulled into a dreamy slow dance.

tracing his steps and following the pace isn't hard. it feels natural, almost like i was made for it. occasionally we trip or fuck up, but that doesn't matter at all. to me it's perfect either way.

he places his head against my chest, sighing contently. i gladly nuzzle his brown, fluffy hair, taking in the faint smell of candy scented shampoo mixed with weed.

now it's not only us who are moving slowly, it's time too. everything in the room seems to have halted to a near stop. it feels like we're the center of the universe, all the stars and planets and galaxies revolving around us.

i look down upon the beautiful boy in my grasp, smiling as our eyes meet. his eyelids are drooping ever so slightly but i just think it makes him cuter. he stands up on his tippy toes, positioning himself so that his lips are mere inches away from mine. i can feel his hot breath grazing them, bearing a strong desire.

i shut my eyes long before he even kisses me to get the most out of the moment, and once he does i'm sent up into the clouds again. floating, dazed.

his touch is intoxicating. i could never get enough. it's like a drug, so easily addictive and so wonderfully numbing, like a shot of straight morphine. i get lost too quick and honestly it's scaring me. nick is technically still a stranger, yet he makes me feel this way.

we break apart, and with a tug on my sleeve i'm pulled out of my trance.

"c'mere, i wanna show you sum," he slurs, enthusiastic as ever.

i don't protest even if i would've preferred staying for some proper tongue. i guess that'll just have to wait. cause despite my less than ideal state of mind, i know one thing for sure. i want him, and i want him bad.

xxx

i'm gonna hold ya
when no one would
cause i swear you deserve so good