Before We March

Chapter 15: What Happened To Brenda?

The coffee's aroma swifts to the air while I read this curriculum vitae. My mind is drown in the shore as I think about this Jordan kid last night at Dylan's birthday party.

But how come my father said that my child and Jordan well my ex husband died twenty years ago? Did my father lie on purpose?

I couldn't remember anything except making them their favorite ham and egg sandwich and my ex husband's face but my child is too young that time and I'm pretty sure he is all grown up right now if he is still alive or is he still alive?

Almost a decade after the incident my body was weakened and my anxiety for them grew when I leave the sacred lives , trying to search for them on my own but I failed ,I was alone for a decade till I found Dylan.

He was so close to my father during Highschool days and we were like best of friends back then. It's weird for the present situation but he was there when I get married to Jordan Sr. at a west supporting us but they aren't that close to each other for Dylan has feelings for me at the past but look how reality turns it.

We got a child and that is Stefanina but the moment she came I wasn't ready I was feeling the tears of joy and sadness thinking about his brother that she has no idea with yet..

Dylan supported me through the years I face my depression and lonesome. Until three years ago, my mind was full of stressful thoughts that it led to another personality.

A persona which I hear voices of my past and they were haunting me like crazy. Dylan and my father then decided to put me on a mental hospital and when I got into that place. My mind heals and started to think of the future.

Stefanina was like 5 years old back then and I promise myself to focus at her from now on.

When I leave the mental hospital a year ago, Dylan was already the president of the united states and that changes my life for the next two years.

His people started to train me as i get ready to become the first lady of this country and manage to have more quality time with my adorable Stefanina. I never thought that I could be better but not more than great at my present daily dose.

That is why a month ago I decided to take a visit at the road where my father used to said Jordan and my ex husband died and gave them my farewell to move on in life with their favorite ham and egg sandwich.

And I thought I could move on?

But no it was difficult for a mother to lose the first two most amazing person in your life in the most unexpected time.

Then came last night when the past came to haunt me as this proclaiming son of mine with the same name and coincidentally an employee of my husband started to get in my thoughts once again. I ask my secretary to check and gave me his curriculum vitae which I'm holding right now.

And he looks to grew up in this place called el tatio with so much accomplishments in a very young age. For the first time in a very long time I got to smile once like a very proud mother , especially the time I saw his age was the same as my proclaimed dead son and he also have resemblance of his father's.

"Is he really alive? is my baby really still alive?" Brenda asked herself

"What's that honey?" Dylan asked out of nowhere.

"Honey, I think my baby is alive" Brenda smiled in joy as she holds into her optimistic feeling for Jordan.

Dylan looks at Jordan's curriculum vitae and smiled back at Brenda.

"Are you sure? Do you want me to Go talk to him regarding this?

I asked him that I should be the one to talk to him but Dylan insist to do it for me so I had no choice but to say okay at the end. I trust him and besides they get along and that's a good thing.

"Mommy" Stefanina runs and ask for Brenda to teach her how to bake her cookies.

Stefanina is around seven and she seems to admire my skills. I carried her and kisses Dylan on the cheek for I thanked him in advance.

"no problem honey, anything for you".

Later on, he slides in his finger for his smartphone and contacted someone with a gentle voice.

"hello?"

From the kitchen, Stefanina seems to ask me a lot of questions regarding me and his father before her. But I felt like I need to hide to her the truth right now because she might felt bad about it and she still is in a very young age but I told her that she had a brother.

She was excited when I told her that there is a possibility that they might met in the future. I just felt it already that last night we met again.

"Can you teach me how to make ham and egg sandwich so that I could make one for my Big Brother?" Stefanina asked leaving Brenda with a touch heart and delighted mood and granted her little girl's wish.

"Of course baby! let's teach you how to make ham and egg sandwich for your big brother, the way he loves it!"

I was about to giggle with excitement the moment I saw Dylan at the door looking at us while he leans on the wall with a huge smile on his face and his hands on his pocket.

"I love moments like this"

I asked him to come join us for he was an easy go person and really had time for his family even though he is the busiest person in the united states right now. This is my life now and i couldn't wait for Jordan to be a part of it and once again reach for my responsibilities for him as his mother. I really wanted to make it up to him and I'm missing him so much.

If I could turn back yesterday I could just hug him and didn't bother to doubt in the first place and I think that is my biggest regret in my entire life. I don't need a proof for my son because I really have a great feeling that last night that kid is my baby boy Jordan all grown up.