Before We March

Chapter 19: Famous Last Words

A Dark place shutters as I opened my eyes. Blank space hoops into the corners of this nowhere. Am I dead? It's like I'm entering my mind after my eyes shut in black I have to stand up and explore the questions circling through my mind.

*Emergency Room opens* " MOVE AWAY!" We have a patient losing blood here at the emergency room , Brenda cries in paranoia as the president himself shouts at the out minded Jordan to fought.

What is this place? I never thought I would see such until a glimp of a man walks his way to me with a light following his steps.

"No way." Jordan mumbles as he started to see the figure of the anonymous man coming his way. Tears started to drop for seconds.

*cutting Jordan's shirt in half* The doctor asked to close the door and started to operate with quick hands. Brenda and his husband can't do anything but to pray and wait as the tears in her eyes is overflowing with regrets.

It was King Paul Sr. , his father is standing in front of the older and current version of Jordan.

"I though I'd never see you again" Jordan hugs his poppu with overflowing tears as well but this time it's all joy and gratefulness.

"how are you, Son? I missed you so much" King Paul Sr. tilt his head down and gave Jordan a kiss at the top of his head.

I can't help but to shot him with apologies and regrets of words, telling him that it was all my fault and I should've listen to him in the first place maybe he is alive , maybe just maybe, we are still together fighting for a better world for the black people.

My father roam me to this dark hall with conversations I never thought I would still do with him. Telling him that I found mom and have this romance with my childhood best friend Michigan. On the other side of the conversations are his fatal dropping on the line.

"Patient started dropping his vitals doctor! *the nurse gave the doctor his revivor to revive his vitals.

I told my father everything that made my eyes open for the inner scary world they gave us to suffer.

"Poppu? What should I do? I am so tired of all the hate they brought me , I'm so tired to wake up with regrets and being a man of an isle waiting for a ship that there is no assurance if it would sink after."

I stared down with a feeling of giving up when my father started reciting this quote from Martin Luther King Jr.

"Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that; Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that." King Paul Sr. spoked as he seems to motivate and inspire Jordan to fought because he still have the chance as long as he is still breathing.

Telling him not to felt sorry for everything he blamed himself in the past because it's all him and he really didn't meant to happen.

I was confused with his last words that made me put my chin up and look him straight into his eyes.

Madam , I believe this tapes belongs to your son , we found it once we opened his shoes. Brenda started to remember the tapes and recognize that it was from his ex husband. The president fixes his necktie and asked her what is the tapes all about.

"You have to Carry On, my son, you are being blindsided by your current foundness. You have to see the real surroundings , you have to change the game , you have to live not only for me but for everyone like us".

The questions are starting to bloom with answers, he then told me that only I could see the truth with his own creating, the tapes. I have to get those old analog tapes.