Without you

Marry...him?

*Blaines pov*
I was out walking in Central Park with my boyfriend of 1 year we were having a great time and I loved his company. Central Park was the first place we went on our first date and we've gone many times since but it was cold today and I'd honestly rather be at home, we shared a small apartment only a mile or two away.
"Hey blainey bear? Let's sit on the bench my legs hurt"
My bf says taking me out of my thoughts; we sit down and cuddle up close for a few moments. I loved him but every time we cuddle or kiss I find my self thinking of my old love, Kurt. I try to not think of him he probably has a boyfriend.... or a husband BLAINE STOP THINKING OF HIM YOU BLOCKED HIM FOR A REASON oh yeah bc he obviously didn't care about me anymore? Yeah. "Blaine?"
"Oh crap I'm sorry what was that"
"Let's start walking back okay?"
"Yeah of course"
Thank god I'm freezing.. just as we start walking we start passing the water fountain where we had our first kiss...and where me and Kurt had our last. STOP IT!
"Hey can uh do you wanna take some pictures?"
"Uh sure but who will take them" I said questioning but right as I did someone offered to..that's not a thing that happens in NY. We are posing and taking pictures I will admit he looked really really cute he says we should do a silly back to back one which was the best go to silly pose and I start laughing as soon as we do...he wasn't so I turn around in complete uder shock....
"Blaine Anderson I know we've only been going out for a year now but everytime I look at you my life flashes before my eyes and I see us old wrinkly and gray laughing at our old memories I see our kids having kids and most importantly I see a ring on both of our fingers..I- you make me so happy and I don't wanna do this whole life thing without the man I love, so Blaine Devon Anderson... will you marry me?"
I notice tears trailing down his face and mine as well as I tell him
"I can't...."
He runs off and an hour later as I haven't left the park he text me "your ***** in the yard" but I don't leave not yet I wasn't ready to go back there where would I go? It stuck me I'd stay at Rachel's, she was single so I wouldn't worry about couples making me sad and she didn't live far so I call her through my tears asking if I could stay with her...

A/n - I know these are short but I like reading shorter story's with more chapters bc I get tired reading and I make myself finish the stories before i fall asleep so let me know if y'all want it differently!