Without you

Party at Rachels!!!

*Kurts Pov*
I've been having a hard time recently with Vouge and NYADA...wow what an amazing thing to be able to complain about! I know I should be happy I'm following my dreams but each step further into my dreams I get I realize I missing the only one that I needed to have, I would drop anything for this dream to be true
Calling Blaine Devon Anderson mine again.

"Kurt are you even listening?!" Rachel yelled from the opposite end of the phone pulling me out of my daze.
"Crap I'm sorry what!"
"Party tomorrow night, I figured I'd hold a glee party since it's been forever and a half! Oh also dress extra nice...there's a special guest!"
I really didn't feel like partying but with Rachel there was no choice; so I finished up my dinner and flop back in bed playing on my cell. My boss told me I had the week off for mental health so I knew there could be 0 excuses it really feels like the worlds against me...
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*at the party*
I made my way to Rachel's door being sure not to be to early I knock two times rehearsing what the night would hold and the conversations be...would it be like the sleepovers in highschool talking about their partners? What would I say? That I'm still madly in lo-

"Kurt? Oh Um I- come uh come inside..." as is this parts couldn't have been any worse blaine was here...this calls for disaster. I could already feel my eyes wondering where they shouldn't be, I had to keep telling myself the past is the past and we didn't work for a reason. But he was wearing THE OUTFIT yk only the one we got engaged in?!? Ugh why did this man do this to me
"Earth to Kurt!!! You've been standing there for 20 minutes what's the matter?"
I tried to tell her I should leave but she refused of course instead we went to the top of the driveway to talk about it as much as I didn't want to...
"Trouble in paradise" Rachel ask me I chuckle I'd prefer that over this any day
"I don't think you could call it that if there's no one for it...Rach, I still love him" I realize I'm crying and feel stupid but I may as well get it out "he's so perfect and it's all gone now it's all thrown out the window bc of me I miss him so much and he's just so cute and perfect rach... I need him I'm dying day after day is a living ****!!! But why would he want me again we failed! But when we kissed it wasn't cheesy fireworks it was like a peice of me that had been missing for so long was completely and now I don't even have half of what I had because my whole heart Belongs to him" at this point I'm Ight crying and it's bad I feel bad for Rachel but ultimately feel better
"Well cowboy ho get him tell him what you told me...when he opened the door to you his eyes glew Kurt they were glowing! He wants you...maybe even more than you want him"
"Rach...what if he hates me? Besides the party's over and I won't keep him up an-"
"GO"I loved this girl but sometimes she was scary...
I tap on his bedroom door about to change my mind  and leave when I hear
"Come in!"

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