The day that I knew the reason why he didn't pursue me, and going out on me, I felt so sad.
I didn't know that he was suffering.
I didn't know that he was carrying such heavy burden on his shoulders on his own.
And I felt like I was one of the reason why it was heavier.
He told me that he truly loves me, but he was so scared for me. He was scared of hurting me.
"Ang unfair naman non sayo, 'di ba? Gusto kita, pero paano nalang kapag nagkagusto ako sa iba? Sa lalaki? Mas masasaktan ka kasi hindi lang babae yung pagseselosan mo,"
Those were his words.
And I didn't even cry, thank goodness. I was just listening to him.
I could've helped him.
I could've made him even more happier than he was with me. Because I was willing to let go.
I could've prevented my fall further.
And after our talk, he escorted me home. I was looking at his back while he was walking away from me.
"Atticus Wren."
He looked back.
"Ako pa naman, 'di ba?"
I felt like breaking down.Why did I even ask that?
"Adrielle, ikaw pa, oo. Pero mapapatawad mo ba 'ko kung sasabihin kong may nagugustuhan na akong iba? Siguro tama na 'to. Ayokong mas masaktan ka,"
And he continued walking away.
Tanggap ko siya. Kasi naging magkaibigan muna kami bago kami naging ganito. Tanggap na tanggap ko siya pero bakit ang sakit?
Hulog na hulog na 'ko eh. Pero wala naman siyang karapatan sa'kin. Hindi niya naman akong kailangan sagipin. This is my own problem and I have to face this.
Atticus Wren was once mine.
Was.
YOU ARE READING
Ako pa naman, 'Di ba?
Short Story"He was once mine. He was my person." "What changed?" "Everything. As cliche as it sounds, everything changed. Better, for him." "And for you?" I smiled.
