All Mine: McCarthy Clan (Book 4) (Completed)

Chapter 19: Big Family BBQ (Dean's, Erin's & Tony's POV)

**DEAN'S POV**

For the past six weeks, it's just been me, the boys, Jodie coming in on her days or nights off to sleepover. The four of them have gotten along well, now and then someone would pick a fight about it but they never lasted. It's Friday night the night before the fortnightly family grill at my dad's house. It's the first Saturday night she has had off for over six weeks. Yes, we have gone on dates without the boy's but she's very keen on including the boys as much as possible. We are cuddling up on the floor in my gym after a workout session that turned into hot sex after the warm down. Her fingers tracing over my tattoos on my stomach, she looks up at me with one of her smoking hot smiles.

"What's this one about? It's so beautiful."

What do I say to her that half of my body art is about my late wife or children? She knows parts of what has happened but not all of it. "Um... After Dana's Father and her ex-boyfriend's biker gang shoot up our house and me, surviving that shit storm and welcoming our boys after she wanted to get tattoos. I had been thinking for a while about getting it to represent us healing from our past."

"Wow... I am amazed you are alive I can tell by your scares that you are one lucky man to be still here."

"Yes, I am and yet she gives birth and it kills her, God's plan doesn't make any sense to me."

"Wasn't going to say that Dean, you know I'm not on talking terms with him either." She's right, I knew that but it hurts, I know I am moving on but it's her forty-first birthday coming up and everything reminds me of her, it hits me hard now and then. I know this is not the love I had with Dana, it's different, she's not my drug I don't get that overwhelming feeling of needing to touch, smell, kiss, or fuck her with no care who see's. I shouldn't be thinking like this, it feels good being with Jodie, it's the closest feeling I have had since Dana so why am I having doubts now?

"Dean, did you want to join me in the shower?"

"What do you think?"

"Unsure, I've never seen that look on you before."

"Oh, well any man would be silly if they didn't want to join you in a shower." She laughs as she stood up grabbing my arm pulling me up, I let the little thing do it. She knew I did too, I picked up our clothes and looked at her with a cheeky grin on my face. "Want to do a nudie run?"

"What and have your boy's walk in on us again, no thanks." She's laughing as she puts her clothes back on, once dressed we both raced into the house and my bathroom, I know I had promised Alexander I wouldn't have sex with her while his home but what he won't know won't hurt him. I wish I hadn't promised him, but I did. By the time I locked up she was nearly finished and didn't want to have a round in the shower, claiming she was a little tender. Both in our PJ's cuddling up under the blankets, I just wanted to know her answer. "Jodie you spend most of your free time here, why don't you put your house up for rent and move into my home?"

"Um... please don't take this the wrong way." She says this as she sits up, I follow the lead looking at her with a little worry on my face. "I love you, you know, that right?" She asked.

"Yes, I know"

"I enjoy hanging out with the boys, they are a great bunch of teens you've done well."

"I'm sensing a big but here."

"Please I'm not being a bitch, it's just my home is mine, it got too hard to live in that home with having so much of Vincent's items and our son's stuff that he never got to use. I ended up removing it all only keeping bits of it here and there like photo's or an object that I hold dear to my heart, but your home, I feel like the other women, like I know if Dana had survived I know you wouldn't have looked at me."

She holds her hand up stopping me from saying anything. Fuck I'm feeling like the world's biggest dick.

"I get why you have heaps of her stuff and photos left, I would have done the same thing if our son had survived, but I feel like I'm stepping on her toes, but also I'm not the boy's mom. I love being your girlfriend but I'm not sure I'm ready for the stepmom role. If I move into this home I would feel like I'm out of place and how would I discipline them if they misbehave when your not home? All three are bigger than me, I know they wouldn't as they are all so much like you but there is always that what if in the back of your head."

"So, my take from all of that is we are moving too fast, and that moving in is too soon? Also, the boys had one mom it's up to them if they want to call you stepmom, I won't force them if they don't want to."

She smiled at me, then thrown her arms around my shoulders hugging me tightly. "You took that better than I thought, I was thinking it would end up into a big fight."

"Oh, well had to see if from your side of things. I know I still have heaps of her things and photos of her around the house, I don't want to sound like an asshole but I love you both. I will always love her but you are my present love."

"Answer this honestly, please. Is our love the same type of love you had with Dana? Am I your drug?"

"No... not fully the same"

I think I just broke her heart... "In what way?"

"I don't know if it's age but she was my drug, you give me the same feelings."

"But it's not liked a drug."

"Yes, do you hate me? Is it the same for you with Vincent?"

"No, I don't hate you Dean, little hurt but not hate, no not the same with the pair of you at all."

"I'm not your drug?"

"You are my drug... I'm just not your drug..." She whispered.

"I wouldn't say that"

"You just said that! You say you love me; your boys are enjoying me being around, your family is about to meet me, my friends love you but you're still holding a lot back! Why won't you open up to me Dean?!" I looked at her with tears in my eyes as she yells at me with tears streaming down her face. "I've only opened up to one person Jodie and she died! I fear that if I open up to you"

"That I would die?"

"Yes, I cannot lose another person I love Jodie, I can't..."

"Oh, Dean" She pulled me down towards her holding onto me tightly as I cry, I don't think I have cried in front of her at all.

"I get it, Dean, I do really. You tell me when you are ready ok? Want a tissue?" I nod my head, she leans back grabbing me a few then handed it to me, quickly cleaned myself up. "Now, don't go acting like a man and be all embarrassed cause I had seen you cry. Remember real men cry ok."

"I"

"You're not weak either."

"Stop reading my mind."

Bang, bang, bang, bang on the bedroom door.

Sebastian yelled at us. "Quit yakking and go to sleep!"

"You're not the"

"Don't care we have exams coming up; I need my sleep!"

"Ok..."

She laughs pulling me down into the bed, she cuddles up to me as we say our goodnights to each other before going to sleep.


**ERIN'S POV**

Why are the town gossips still going on about my thirteen-year age gap between myself and Aaron is crap, we have made it work and we have had shit loads of shit thrown at us early on in our relationship with him being sent away right after we got married. The number of people telling him that I would have left him for another man was hard to hear. I was more worried about him being killed and leaving me behind with our children. Or my favorite one was he has only married me because I fell pregnant with Ruby, not the fact that he wanted me pregnant, he still does even after we both had the snip. I get the feeling he wanted a football team.

Not going to lie life has been hard, losing my best friend and sister-in-law at once nearly killed this family. But the children needed the adults to be adults and look after them, more so her boys than anyone. I never thought Dean would get out of that sinking black cloud he had been in for so long, watching him change since he has met Jodie, it's like the old Dean is coming back. She must be nice to him to get him out of that darkness. Hope she respects Dana and does not try to take her place.

Never thought I would ever want to leave Aaron but at one point in our lives, I couldn't stand to be in the same house as him, after he got addicted to his pain medication and hitting harder drugs, cleaning out our bank accounts, yelling at myself and the children he really scared me. So glad his brother's managed to get him clean and stay clean, but it's taken us a long time to get back to our safety nest egg, my trust in him again, and our love.

Four teens in this house and I feel like I am in a war zone, mixed with a husband who is like a child himself. It's like an iceberg in this family one problem will be small but it goes deep down. After giving birth to Neasa and letting Dean see her first out of the family and letting him know her name, his face lit up. He's been so close to Neasa everyone knows she's his favorite niece, also everyone doesn't care as they all understand.

Aaron has gotten so angry at Dean for keeping his girlfriend away, I understand why big shoes to fill also how much the family had loved Dana he wanted to be sure that she would get along with everyone. Today is the day we all get to meet this Jodie; I am happy to meet her but I need to stop comparing her to Dana. As she will be having everyone judging her, she doesn't need more judgment. Unsure of how Aaron is going to take it, he and Dana were so close at first, I was jealous of their relationship but after watching them together I realized they are like siblings. I knew I was being silly cause if there were feelings from either of them Dean would have made a point at them not spending time together.

Laying in bed still in my panties and topless just how Aaron likes it but doesn't make life with teenagers easier if they want to walk into our room without knocking. It hit me why Dean didn't want to do the grill this weekend, Sunday would have been Dana's forty-first birthday.

I lean over looking at my handsome husband sound asleep with his arm draped over my stomach as he enjoys taking over the whole bed, today I don't mind as I am feeling cold and his arm is nice and warm under this blanket. "E please tell me you're thinking about me naked." I laugh, that is one of the best things about him even at his darkest moments he always tries to make me laugh.

"I think you wish I was thinking about you naked."

"Oh, now if it's another man please go into full details about what you're doing to him."

"Wow, you have started the morning off with a bang Aaron."

"So, it's a female good! Go to full detail describe what she is doing to you." I throw the spare pillow at his head while he's laughing. "You have one dirty mind; I cannot handle that until after my morning coffee."

"If you tell me what is on your mind, I will get you coffee," Aaron said.

"Azza you're not playing nice."

"With you never."

"Was just thinking about what is today going to be like, and how Dean will be."

"Why are you thinking about my brother with only your panties on?"

"That's what you took from what I just said?" I asked.

"No, not really. Why do you think we all will hate her?"

"No, if the boys like her she must be nice."

"Then what is it?" He asked.

"Have you forgotten what Sunday is?" I asked him.

"No, it's the day that you used to drag me to church before Neasa was born." He grumbles.

"Hahaha no, it's Dana's birthday."

"Oh.... That's why he didn't want to do the grill." He pulls me in a tight hug, it's early so the only person that could be up in the house other than us would be Jason. Aaron starts kissing my neck, as his hands roam over my body. "Hhmmm you smell so dam good baby... we have time before they wake up."

"Hmmm hurry take my panties off." As soon as I said that my panties were off and he was on top of me kissing any part of my body he could find. I start pulling down his boxers as his hand reaches my clit rubbing softly. "mmm Aaron please..."

"Hmmm please, what babe?"

"Fuck, just read my mind for once!"

"Fucking love this side of you." He lifts me throwing me onto my front I get up onto my hands and knees as he leans over pulling the lube out of the draws next to our bed, dropping a good amount on my ass he leans back over grabbing his favorite toy. Smearing lube over my hole, and over the toy, I can hear him stroking himself. "Oh, please hurry..."

"Does my girl want me to hurry up?"

"YES!" As he's talking to me his running the toy along my throbbing clit. "Right, which hole does my girl want this in?" I grab ahold of the toy and moving it up to the hole I wanted it in, he let out a moan leaning over kissing my lower back. "Good choice babe..." He slams his hard dick into my throbbing wet entrance, I moaned into my pillow, fuck he feels so good. Hearing my moan, he slowly pushes the toy into my other hole.

"HMMMMM Aaron I'm not going to last..."

"Neither am I...."

He puts the toy's speed up to the highest setting as he pushes it in as far as I can take it before he starts pounding into me hard in both holes, just the way we both like it. We both came undone; I couldn't keep it quiet it was the best in a long time, Aaron raced into our bathroom grabbing a clean wet face washer to clean me up before cuddling back up to me. "Babe, sweetheart you better hope the kids didn't hear you."

"Couldn't help it, it was especially wonderful."

"If we both hadn't had the snip, I bet you would be pregnant right now."

"What at the lovely ages of forty-seven and thirty-four! Are you nuts?! It would be like starting all over again! HELL NO! I am good all four of our children can wipe their own ass's!"

"I know right we should throw a party to celebrate what our children can do!" I start laughing so hard, "Erin?"

"Hmmm?"

"How much are you going to compare Jodie to Dana?"

"Well for one I am going to do my best not to. Dean wouldn't want everyone sizing her up, he's already going through enough hell he doesn't need us doing that."

"Now I know why I had married you."

Ruby's screams filled the house, "FUCK YOU JASON! YOU SICK MOTHER FUCKER!"

Jason yelled back at her, "WHAT YOU CRAZY BITCH NOTHING WRONG WITH DRINKING OUT OF THE MILK BOTTLE!!"

"Arghh and they have already started, I'll go out to them; you miss put on that cute dress that I had bought you."

"It's way too early to get ready for the grill Aaron!"

Ruby screamed out again, "OWW! YOU ASSHOLE! MOM! DAD! JASON"

"I DID NOT! MOM, DAD I DIDN'T DO WHAT SHE SAYING I DID!!"

"Fuck! They are on their way!" Aaron said in a panic.  As soon as he said that he leaned over, throwing our sex items into the draw throwing the sheet over our naked bodies as they both stormed into our bedroom. "Heard of knocking first!" Aaron snapped, while I yelled out, "GET OUT!"

"But mom!"

"Right now, it can wait! Give me and your father ten fucking minutes!"

"You two are idiots! Mom and Dad just finished their morning sex session, let them get cleaned up!" We both groaned as our smartass mouth fifteen-year-old Neasa yelled from the kitchen.

Jason looked like I asked him to eat his dirty socks, "Ohhh crosses!"

"Really?! You two couldn't do that at night when we are all asleep and no chance of hearing it!" Ruby snapped.

"Well"

"Don't fucking answer that Aaron!"

The kids left the room slamming the door behind them as Aaron rolls around laughing, I throw his pillow at him as I get out of the bed.

"This is not funny! They are out of control!"

"They are acting like teenagers Erin"

"Arghh you think with the way you've been bought up you would want the same for your own children."

"Oh, I do, but I pick my battles with them. This one can wait until I have had my shower and wearing clean clothes and have had our morning coffee that I said I was going to make."

"Good you owe me a coffee, Mr. McCarthy!"

"That I do." We both shared the shower and getting dressed as fast as we can cause we can hear them at it again different kids but still fighting, think Saturday morning the children will sleep in, that's not today.

**TONY'S POV**

Dad wasn't kidding when he said the whole family was coming to this one, even Alexis can make it. This is great cause I miss those grandchildren of mine. We are just waiting on Dean and his family to get here. Erin has gotten all the food ready as normal, also not letting anyone help her.

"Has anyone see this lady yet?" Aaron asked, his nosy as all hell today.

"How about we just let the poor thing arrive first," I said.

Sara looked at us both, "Yeah, we don't want to overwhelm her." Just as Sara said that I can hear Alexander's voice over everyone's telling someone a story, his usual behavior, he has the best of Aaron, Dean, and Dana in him hopefully he gets his impulse need to misbehave when he doesn't agree with authority under control he could go anywhere in the world that his heart desires. Then I see Dean's face its lit up yes, we have all seen him looking like that before but it's different this is new and so good to see him finally looking truly happy. Then I spot who's holding his hand and I froze.