Why Me? || ksj

Mine

The both of you close your eyes and you finally feel his lips against yours.

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His lips are soft, softer than you ever imagined. It's a warm kiss, not a greedy one that smashes you together. It's like a peck, but more... physical. After locking the memory in your brain, you pull back and look down at your lap, your hands fidget together and you bite your bottom lip, trying to hide your smile. It was only one kiss. It wasn't a make out or anything. But you still can't help but blush deeply.

"Be mine"

Jin is staring at you with glazed eyes and wet eyelashes, with a pleading expression.

He gently grabs your hands and brings them up to his lips, where he lightly kisses your knuckles. Without realizing it, you're caressing his cheek and cupping his face, squeezing his cheeks together, making him look like a chipmunk.

As you smoosh his face, his lips are protruding out and being unable to resist it, you lean forward again and peck him lightly.

"Is that a yes?"

He's grabbing your hands off his cheeks and intertwining them with his, putting your locked hands in front of your faces. You stay quiet, nibbling on your lip. Jin notices your hesitation and kisses your knuckles again.

"It'll be hard to date me, I know. I'm an idol, but... I can't let someone like you slip away. You make me forget reality, you make me... happy"

Before you know it, you can barely see through the tears in your eyes. Nobody has talked to you that way in years, not even your own parents, so you can't help but get emotional. 

"Okay" you finally find your voice after what feels like forever.

His head jolts up and you lock eyes, he looks like a little kid. He lets go of your hands and grabs your face, pressing your lips back together. This time feels different, more passionate, less hesitant and awkward for the both of you, you love it even more than the first time. When you pull back this time, you don't try to hide your smile at all, and neither does he. 

"It's getting cold, I have a coat in the car you can have" he says, still smiling brightly. You nod and start walking ahead, only to realize he's not next to you anymore.

"Ji-" 

You're interuppted by strong arms wrapping tightly around your waist. Jin's being clingy already. You giggle at how cute he is before he nuzzles your neck with his nose. You've played this scenario in your head for days, but everything is so much better than you dreamed. Without hesitation, you ruffle his hair next to you and you pull his hands around your waist tighter. He complies fast as ever.

The two of you waddle your way to his car, which is parked at the side of the road. He grabs an oversized coat from his trunk and puts it around your shoulders, opening the door for you. You look at him weirdly, he's different. He's... hesitant with everything he's doing. His jaw is clenched and he has a bead of sweat on his forehead, he's tense.

"Why are you being so weird?" you can't handle it anymore.

"What are y-"

"You know what I'm talking about. Why aren't you teasing and annoying me like you always do?"

He looks down, ashamed, he can't even look you in the eyes as he speaks.

"I-I've never been in a relationship before. I can't mess this one up" he whispers.

"I've never been in one either" he whips his head up, surprised.

"Be you, okay? The person I like is the one who's been nagging and annoying me all day" you smirk at the thought.