Why Me? || ksj

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"Are you going to leave me?"

Huh?!

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"What?" I turn back to him with a bewildered look on my face. He's still staring at the ground, cradling his head with his hands before he looks up at me.

"It's out. The pictures. It's going to be too hard"

"Jin, what are you saying?"

"People are going to hurt you"

"I can protect mys-"

"Not physically! Verbally! They're going to bring you down as much as possible with their words!"

I flinch and take a step back. He's never raised his voice at me before.

His eyes are starting to water too and he visibly gulps before locking eyes with me.

"I don't want you to get hurt. I..." He pauses and a tear trickles down his cheek, "Let's break up"

It felt like my whole world was crashing down on me. Does he actually want to break up with me? He hasn't even asked me how he feels about this.

"You're joking. You can't actually be serious right now"

"Min-jie..."

"You haven't even asked me how I feel about this! How-how" I start raising my voice at him too, something I haven't done either, "HOW COULD YOU BE SO SELFISH?!"

He flinches at my voice too.

"I-I think it's best to stay away from each other from now on" I could tell he struggled to say those words.

"I should get going..." he puts his head down, grabbing his things. I stare at his back in the doorway and he just... leaves. Without even looking back. That fact alone makes me sick to my stomach.

I fall onto the ground and cry, cry as hard as I can with my head buried into my arms. Maybe this is what I've been holding in for so long. It feels good not needing to bottle it up anymore.

And just like that, my only hope was gone. The person who made me happier than ever just left without looking back. I don't get why he did it either. I don't need protection, as long as I'm with him.

Building up the courage to look at my phone, I scroll through the messages and comments on the pictures. A lot of them were bad, but a couple were good, which made me so happy. Of course he left me when I need him the most.

"Wtf, she's so ugly. Our WWH deserves better lmfao"

"Our poor Jin :( I know he's getting older or whatever, but he can do better"

"She's probably using him for his money and fame. Don't worry Jin, us ARMYs will protect you!"

"ARMYs will be happy with whoever you're with Seokjin!"

I smile at the last comment, my eyes red and puffy. Maybe I should get some fresh air? I've been crying for hours now. I glance at my watch -11:43-

It's pretty late, but I need a breather. Jin always warned me to never walk outside alone at night, and my heart clenches at the thought. I suddenly have the urge to go outside even more, I want to disobey him. Is that bad?

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T/W- This scene has sexual assault/harassment, so if you are triggered by this, skip to the next line break thing.