Our Broken Promises [Ongoing]

Chapter 9

"Uh... Can we talk?" Ok. This is it. I'm gonna tell him. I already made up my mind.

"Ok." he said with a cold and lazy voice. Is he disappointed or something?

"But, can we talk somewhere else? Like, just the two of us?"

"Sure, but where?" he asked. Well, we can go to the park and sit on the bench or the swing.

"How about... Sa park?"

"Sure" bakit parang ang tipid niyang sumagot ngayon? Hays.

I fixed my bag and waited for him outside the room.

We decided to walk since the park is near. It's only like a 5-10 minute walk, depending on how fast you walk. But we got there after 5 minutes, because we just kept walking and neither of us talked.

I went to the swing since the bench is already preoccupied. Grey just followed me quietly and sat on the other swing.

"Ok, So... What are you going to tell me?" Grey asked and medyo nagulat ako since he was quiet the whole day and good thing he didn't notice that I was kinda surprised.

~Flashback~

"Mom, what will I do? What am going to say?" I really don't know what to do so I went to Mom's room.

"I don't know. It's up to you."

"But... But I really don't know what to say. I can't make up my mind." I said.

"Here's the thing. Gusto ma ba or may feelings ka sa kanya?" Mom asked.

"I'm not sure. Di ko na talaga alam Mommy."

"Ganito na lang, if hindi mo pa alam, maaari kang pumayag na magpaligaw, dahil habang nililigawan ka niya, doon mo makikita o mararamdaman kung may gusto ka ba sa kanya. Pero kung gusto mo na talaga siya, ano pang hinihintay mo? Sagutin mo na, wag ka na magpaligaw. Dahil relasyon ang pinapahaba, hindi ang panliligaw." pageexplain ni Mommy.

Haysssss.

"Thanks Mom." I don't know what to say so I just thanked her.

"Pero, bakit hindi po kayo against or galit? Bakit pinapayagan niyo ako palagi kapag nagpapaalam ako na gagala kami?" Pahabol kong tanong, I was always curious kasi palagi lang siyang pumapayag.

"Kasi ayokong maranasan mo yung mga naranasan ko dati. Magpaalam lang ako, marami agad ang sinasabi, palagi lang akong nasa bahay habang ang mga kaibigan ko magkakasama at nagsasaya. Ayokong malayo ang loob mo sa akin dahil lang hindi kita pinapayagan, alam ko naman na alam mo ang mga limitations mo. Gusto kong ako yung unang magparamdam sayo ng pagmamahal na dapat kong ibigay at hindi yung sa ibang tao mo pa mahahanap at mararamdaman." Sabi ni Mom. Gosh, maluluha na ata ako.

"Thanks Mom!!! I love you so much~" ayan, tumulo na luha ko.

"I love you too anak"

"Matulog ka na, goodnight."

"Goodnight po." and I left mom's room.

So the decision is really up to me now huh.

Bahala na nga bukas.

~End of flashback~

"Ok, so I already made my decision." I said.

He nodded at me habang nagtataka.

"Pumapayag na ako."

"Wait, what???" naguguluhan niyang tanong.

"Sabi ko, pumapayag na ako."