The Half Heir

10

    I glared at him, my hands balled into tight fists. I could feel my nails digging into my palm and drawing blood but i didnt care. I felt so many things. I felt so much rage and pain that it was getting really difficult not to lash out. I was kinda surprised with my own reaction. I was totally not expecting to feel like someone was stabbing me in the heart. It hurt like a bitch.

   Plus i felt so angry that i could literally burn everything around me. I could feel my magic growing. It wanted out. It wanted to destroy what was hurting me. I felt tears prick in my eyes. I felt stupid. I never thought i would be crying over a boy. But i wasnt crying over any boy. Andrian was different. And learning that he and Lucia had something, it broke something within me.

  But no matter how painful it was or how betrayed i felt, i couldnt hurt him. I just couldnt. It would kill me if anything happened to him. I closed my eyes and focused on my magic. It was so unsettled. It wanted out. It wanted to cause havoc and chaos. I gritted my teeth and focused on controlling it. The magic belonged to me. I didnt belong to the magic. But it wasnt enough. When i started fighting my magic, it started attacking me.

    It felt like someone was burning me inside  out. Pain was the only thing i felt. I slowly started losing control but i fought on. If i let go of my magic, Andrian would die. I would never let that happen. I didnt care if it would burn me alive but i wasnt going to give up. I immediately felt Rajah's presence. I was so grateful that he was here to calm my magic and help me control it. Together, we both were able to calm down my magic.

   As soon as it was done and my magic was under my control, i opened my eyes and fell. I was thankful that i was already sitting on the bed. I fell on the bed, sweaty and exhausted. God i felt so tired. I closed my eyes and took deep breathes. I used my magic to heal the wounds that my own magic had caused to me. Talk about irony. I felt so much better once i was done. I will have to talk to Anna about this later. This was a close call.

  "Shall i come back little one?" Rajah asked me.

    He sounded worried and frightened. I almost said yes. I would feel a little more in control when he would be near me. I would feel safe. But i couldnt do that. Rajah loved being outside in the forest. I loved it too. I couldnt make him come back into this dull stone prison. Plus i still need to have a conversation with Andrian about he had told me. I just hope i dont lose control again. 

   No dont come back. I got this. I will be fine. I tell my familiar.

   "If you need me, call me and i will be beside you in no time. I will also help you maul off faces or eat their limbs." Rajah said.

   He meant each word. I couldnt help but laugh. I could always depend on Rajah to get a little violent and have my back.

  Yes Rajah i will immediately call you if things get bad. Till then, enjoy life. I told him.

   Rajah didnt say anything else after that. But i could still feel how worried his was. I could sense how much he wanted to come back and baby me. It was really sweet of him but no. I mentally shoved him away. Then i opened my eyes and stared at the carpeted floor. I took a deep breathe and gathered my strength. Just the thought of Andrian and Lucia together brought a fresh wave of pain.

   Tears welled in my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. I quickly wiped them away. I just felt so stupid crying like this. I mean i still hadnt even spoken to Andrian about what was going on between us. Plus those two would have hooked up like decades ago. It shouldnt bother me so much. But then why the fuck did it hurt so much? It felt like my heart was on fire and then someone was stabbing me.

   Andrian immediately pulls me into himself. I am so mad at him that i try punching him and kicking him. But being such a old vampire has its perks. He didnt even budge. He just held me against him in a cold embrace. His scent immediately engulfed me. My body acts on its own accord. I clench his tshirt in my fists, holding him and cry. He slowly rubs my back soothingly. The pain slowly starts fading away.