Counting

DAY 2

I woke up because of my phone alarm and found out that I was just dreaming and that I'd already need to start preparing for later's classes.

I've got to say, everytime I jump from my alarm, everything, from a glimpse, scowers away scared, giving me wquite a chance myself to run out of my room as i carry my bag with me. It's actually pretty funny to see honestly, but it also make me panic alot, sometimes to a point where I'd almost lose my breath. And with that, honestly, I get often surprised that I actually am still breathing.

I don't know about you, but sometimes life just amuses me no matter how terrifying it can be. Or maybe I'm just crazy-thinking. I often do to mostly run away from my horrid experiences and all, you get me?

But hey, I'm off to a good breakfast. I think. I hope. They're just always there and I'd always lose my appetite.

Well, at least I get at least a bite from my breakfast before I could notice them. But I always get the urging feeling of puking when I do. Guck.

After so, I headed off to the bathroom to take a quick bath. I never get to have a decent bath. They can touch me and I can feel them. I don't like that. No. So in addition to that, yep. I often take a bath with my clothes still on. Then I change into new ones as quickly before I could see them.

After all of that is done, mom would normally walk with me to the bus stop.

So there I go again, back to school. I wonder how long I'd last? It's been... Unexpectedly quiet somehow...

"Oh, Garnet!" Alister calls out whilst I was walking down the hallway to my class, Human Anatomy and Physiology. "I'm glad you're a-okay as far as I can see. Shall we go?" She went to me and intertwined our arms, like the way we always do as we walk around the school vacinity. She smiled at me and I smiled back, then headed to our class.

We were able to have our bottoms rested just before our teacher arrived.

To be quite honest, I'm actually just trying to stay as visibly strong as I could. Every once in a while something would tweak out. I try not to be bothered, or not look too bothered, anyway.

And sometimes, honestly now, I just feel much better whenever I land my eyes on Alister, even by just a short moment of a glimpse. I just feel much safer and all, you know?

I actually find it strange how I trust her more than I do with my parents.

"Ms. Anderson, can you explain to us how an infant develops inside the mother's womb?" Mrs. Underwood's classy speech surprised me as her voice caught my ears. I can tell by the tone of her voice that she is rather disgruntled. What did I do? "Were you even listening?"

Oh, right. How can I have forgotten? Our teachers, because of my suspicious act (as i may say so myself), finds me to often be fidgety, as it also affects my attention and listening ability. Some even accused me for having ADD?

???

But anyway, I had nothing more to do but try and give out an answer to Mrs. Underwood's question. "Uhm... The egg cell and sperm cell unites and forms into one cell and... They develop and turn into many other cells to make the baby?" I fiddled my fingers.

She chuckled rudely. It felt as if an extra thousand pounds fell onto me atop my nervousness. "Tell me, Garnet. Do you know our lesson for today?"

"Uh... It... It's not about reproduction, is it?"

"Then what?"

My throat started to feel cold and my hands started to sweat. I bit my lips as it trembled heavily. If you can't tell, I'm feeling extremely nervous.