Can You Hear The Silence? (boyxboy)

I Admire You

Saturday was amazing. Kellin stayed over and we talked,and played video game and house soccer that made mama yelling at us.

He made me happier that for sure. We couldn't kiss anymore cause I didn't want to hurt poor Jaime.

He texted me alot this weekend,inviting me to his house,or to the park while I told him that I'm hanging with Kellin which got him pretty upset.

Jaime is a great guy... he have deep brown eyes,and a big strong frame,funny hair, a grat taste in poetry and two huge dimples with a beautiful smile.

But he's not Kellin,he never was.

He wasn't waiting for me this morning,which make my stomach twist for the thought of him being already mad or hurt.

I walked to my locker to see if he's there and he wasn't.

But there was a note.
"You were never mine
As much as you are his
I could feel it on my tongue
Every time we kissed

You will never love me
As much as you love him
I can feel it
Every time I touch you skin

I admire you
I admire you for everything
You strange and your brain
Your beauty and your caring

And cause I love you so much
I'll let you go
And I'll miss your touch
And that you should know..."
J.P ( that's me...)

I'm letting you go, I know you love him more then you love me...

You are amazing and I'm sorry I wasn't as good as him.

But I want you to be happy,and if its with him the so be it.

It've been a great time Vic.

Love -Jaime-"

My heart broke for the beautiful boy while a huge smile formed on my face.

I can have Kellin,he would be mine.

But I have to help Jaime...