Lifeline

Capitolo Diciannove - Our Two Little Humans

-Sky's POV-

"How are you feeling now Sky?"

"Like somebody's ripping my insides."

"I know, it's just a little bit more time before they get you an epidural okay. We just need the water to break completely."

Throwing my head back from exhaustion I tried closing my eyes trying to subside the pain from the slightest but as I felt another contraction kick in, I squeezed Amore's hand as hard as I can, turning her hand blue and purple in that process. 

"I'm hungry Amore, I'm sleepy, I just want to cuddle with Adriano-"

"Then can I finally call him-"

"NO! Don't you dare call him, I'm not talking to him not now but forever."

"Sure, you're not going to talk to him forever but what happened, we heard so many things shattering when you guys were talking to each other, what the fuck happened?"

She pulled her chair closer to the bed letting me think about how we lashed out to each other. 

"Seeing my supposed dad got me thinking about so many things. First of all Adriano shouldn't have even brought him here without my permission. It's fine though I understood where he was coming from, but thinking about my kids, I don't want to bring them into this life Amore. Constantly worrying if they're okay because we both made a stupid and rash decision."

"Do you regret them?"

"What no, of course not. They're so innocent in all of this. Even though they were made by a decision we both didn't think about the actual outcome. But they brought me closer with their dad, they gave me a new insight into life, our two little humans brought us closer ever than before. But bringing them into this mafia world was guilt tripping me yesterday."

"And how did my stupid brother react when you dropped that bomb on him?"

"He had no reaction. It was like he was expecting me to say all of that but when I took of my ring he gave me he lost it."

"He probably lost it when you were taking off the one thing that probably means so much to him, he thought it was just your pregnancy brain speaking-"

"Hey! I don't have a pregnancy brain. . . I probably do."

"But what else did he do-"

"He thought I was faking our relationship the entire time Amore, he thinks I'm going to be a bad mother which is probably accurate, and he thought I was just dying to get back with Ben, the guy who fucking ruined me. He thought I was faking everything. How do I fake something as a relationship?"

"Sky, you need to think it from his perspective as well. You threatened to take away his children more so give them up and that didn't faze him until you took of your ring, which meant you threatened your relationship with him as well. It was wrong of him to accuse you like that but it was more wrong of you to just jump conclusions like that, you could've at least talked things through with him and tell your worries-"

"I wanted to Amore but he kept apologizing for bringing me into his life and it didn't hit me until now that he was apologizing for the danger he was keeping me in. I was so caught up in this perfect world that I forgot the dangers of being involved with the mafia."

Feeling another contraction kick in, I grabbed the cup of ice I was supposed to eat and rested it on my bump as I put the cool chips in my mouth letting me think how we were both at fault.

"You don't know how much he's trying to change for you and the kids. He was never like this and he's slowly trying to adapt balancing his life with you and the mafia. There will be times of danger Sky but I promise it will never involve your children. Their also his children as well, remember that. He gives way too much importance of family that I know the love they receive from everyone will always protect them. He loves you and the kids so much that you guys became his heartbeat, his lifeline."