Love // Thought

Lethargy

I wanna be swallowed into
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Y
And fester in my depression. I want
to be who I was meant to be; flawed
as fuck and hurting so much I can't
feel it.
I got swallowed into their lies again
And I'm so fucking done I might just
Explode. I want to tell them how I
feel, but why should I when they
don't care?
My friends all have someone else to
lean on
My parents and family "care" for me
All I have is me. And knowing myself
I am no good. So how can I help
Myself by myself if I'm so flawed I
see my misery and resentment in my
Hair?
I don't make sense, I'm so fucking
ugly and I can do anything and
everything in a mediocre manner.
But then I realize that this lethargy is
my home; my sanctuary. I don't want
Your love and I don't want your rude
Jokes, in fact I don't even want to
live here. You all make me sick, with
The exception of pets and I think I'm
A bad person, but you guys fucking
outshone me like the sun.
I'll just wade in my melancholy
And fester by myself.
For this lethargy I know, is my muse.