Chapter 1
AFTER SIX YEARS
New York City
Nagmamadali ako sa pagaayos late nako sa meeting ko for today with a big client. Pagkarating ko sa kotse agad-agad ko itong pinaharurot.
Six years kong hinintay ang big break na ito. As a singer/ model minsan lang dumating ang opportunity na ito I cannot flew it away.
Pagdating ko sa building dumiretso na ako agad sa elevator hindi ko na pinansin ang mga bumabati sakin.
Finally eksato lang ang dating ko halos kasabay ko lang pumasok ang mga client. Phweew I'm scared to death. Buti nalang maasahan ang team ko nakaprepare na ang presentation at nalaman ko pa na filipina ang asawa ng client kaya daw ang nirequest filipino.
Diniscuss lang ang concept ng gagawing mini concert and the proposal is accepted. Ang hindi ko lang nagustuhan ay ang huling sinabi ni Mr.Reid
"The concert will be held in the Philippines"
Doon na parang gumuho ang mundo ko sa pilipinas? Sa bansa na kung saan lahat ng painful memories ko ay naiwan. Natauhan lang ako sa pagkakatulala ng biglang magsalita si Anie ang bestfriend ko na siya ring tumulong sakin para makasurvive dito sa New York.
"Nica handa ka nabang harapin ang mga naiwan mo sa pilipinas?" She said
Handa na nga ba ako? Si Anie lang kasi ang nakakaalam ng totoong istorya ng buhay ko bakit ako napadpad dito lahat lahat.
"I dont know Anie I dont know" I said
Napatungo ako at naramdaman ko na lamang ang yakap ni Anie to comfort me.
I erase the memories of him with tears. Everyday I cry because of him the memories of him still stuck in my heart.
Even though I painfully push you away (I'm still hoping). I don’t think I can stop missing him (I don’t think it can be helped), I don’t think I canmove on.
Six years of longing I tried to throw him away again and again but he grow inside my heart. He become tear drops that won’t dry out and grow even though I erase him again and again. He become a wound that doesn’t even hurt.
No matter how hard I try, I can no longer hold onto my love that becomes more and more blurry each day.
I swallow the tears that dig inside my heart, so my longing won’t lift up its heard, so my exhausted heart won’t know
One thing is for sure I still love him. No matter how hard I call out my love, I can’t.
***FLASHBACK***
Mom and dad died on a plane crash going to peru. My life becomes miserable I dont think I can live anymore. But Sander never leave me he is the the only one I have now.
We're both happy but a bad news came up. Ang kumpanya namin any lubog na lubog sa utang at kung hindi ito mabayaran makukulong ako. I even receive death threats pero hindi ko ito pinaalam kay sander ayokong madamay pa siya dito.
One day Tita Jane call me Sander mom she wanted to talk to me and huwag ko daw sasabihin kay sander. I agree t o meet her at walang paligoy ligoy sinabi niya ang kaniyang pakay.
"Listen Nica you are very smart girl thats why im here to tell you that I will help you regarding sa utang ng company niyo" She said
BINABASA MO ANG
A Broken Mess
RomanceHe's my forever, He's my worst destruction, He's my protector, He's my sweetest downfall, He's my everything and He's Sander Dela Cruz. But the last time I check He's now my dark past and I made his heart frozen and left him A BROKEN MESS.
