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editor: @bombings

edited: march 10, 2015

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flashbacks as well as thoughts are in italic. feel free to comment while reading.

Wierdo // The Vaccines

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I was exhausted and hurt. Still panting and struggling to breathe as I stared at Nick's house. I had left with Rae almost 3 hours ago. I had to run away. So I came to something that would never let me down.

On the ride back, Rae kept saying the weirdest things like "I know you can get better again.", "I'd do anything to get you back." He was talking about the old me and we both knew she was gone. None of it seemed weird at that time, maybe because I was still a little high.

Somehow, we ended up at his apartment instead of mine. I could see it. The way he looked nervous and the occasional glances. He wanted to take me back there. He was going to. They were here to take me away again.

We were still in his driveway. I didn't ask any questions. I thought about running but I couldn't move yet. He said he needed help finding something inside. I told him I wasn't going there again. I wasn't talking about his house.

He reached out to grab me so I hit him hard and run. I could still hear him screaming even when I was past 2 blocks execpt it was only in my head.

Nick knows. Nick knows I don't need help. He could help me.

The house was clean when I stepped in. Nick was sitting behind the counter, eyes fixed on his phone. He hadn't noticed me. I sat next to him, looking down.

"Do you want to talk?" he always asked but I always gave the same reply.

Silence.

He walked away and came back handing me the plane. I hestitated. We stared at eachother.

"He's gone now. Stop holding back, Elle."

Nick always knew the right thing to say.

I didn't hold back as I welcomed the bliss. I was never going to hold back again.

I loved him. He helped me feel, he made me feel something I hadn't felt before but all they wanted to do was take him away because I wasn't good enough for him..no one ever was.

I woke up to the thudding of voices and music below me. I was in bed and it was dark outside. I felt better than before.

Nick was having another party. It wasn't crowded like the night before. I saw him across the room. He started walking over and smiled.

"You were out of it so I took you upstairs and you were gone."

I made an effort to laugh at his joke. "I'm not a lightweight, idiot."

"You're staying though, right?"

I nodded. He hugged me and that was it. He walked away and so did I. I walked back up, snatching a smoke on my way.

I picked a random room. Someone was already there. The guy from the door this morning.

"That's not good for you," he was looking at my fingers. I ignored him. Just walked to the window. Slipping into another world.

It was perfect.

He was still here. He was staring.

"Mind if I join?" He'd asked.

I didn't answer. I just handed it over to him.

"Why don't you talk?"

Too many fucking questions.

"We could talk, y'know."

I don't think so.

"I'll start then."

Whatever. He was quiet for a while leading me to think he had left.

"I'm dead."

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