Sacrifice

So this is my first fanfiction. Today is the 30th Anniversary of the German Reunification. A lot has been going here in Germany and I decided to reflect on few things. This is my first time publishing ever so please have mercy. Happy reunification to all my fellow Germans! I am still not sure about the title.  Meaby I will change it. If you have any suggestions feel free to tell me! And also please tell me if I have too many typos so I can correct them.  Enough talking now... Have fun reading!

It was a lot quieter. Germany sighed and looked at the mug of coffee across to the other side. Prussia was supposed to sit there but had left and hurried into his room. They had argued again. Gilbert was upset because Bremen, Bavaria and low Saxony decided to forbid German Imperial flags. In general they argued a lot more since the reunification. Ludwig didn't understand why Gilbert was so...so upset. After all Ludwig really tried his best. He needed answers and today he would force his brother to give them. This couldn't go on any more.....30 years were enough. Germany rushed to Prussias room and stopped for a few seconds before he opened...or rather ripped the door open

Ludwigs Pov

I stopped in my tracks. Do I really have to do it this way? Well I have been patient with him for long enough and gave him many chances. Today I officially reached my limit. I ripped the door open and stomped inside. Gilbert was slumped in his chair with his head on the table turned away from me. He flinched  and shot up.  He looked at me now. He was startled and it pained me to see his firghtened crimson eyes but I couldn't pull back anymore. I was furious. "What he hell is wrong with you!? I tried everything...no I did everything  I could to help you and your people!", his eyes gew even wider, "Yet you are still not satisfied!? You are so ungrateful!! After I was finished with my rant I looked at him. Prussia was trembling and had his eyes closed. Then his crimson orbs shut open revealing pure anger and then he unleashed his wrath: " I AM UNGRATEFUL!!?", he continued much quieter, "How!? I did always put my trust in you! I let YOU handle Hitlers sentence and get him out of prison early. I accepted that. YOU granted him german citizenship. I accepted that too. YOU destroyed my parliament and let the NSDAP win the election. YOU chose Hitler as your boss  and let him abolish my state. I still stayed loyal and even fought im the war that YOU wanted. And then we were taken to court and I took the responsibility to protect you from a greater punishment. I went with Ivan and endured the abuse and in 1990 I gave up my territories for you and my people.." His voice sounded so broken. "HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDERED HOW MUCH YOU PUT ME THROUGH!? Yet...you call me ungrateful"  He wanted to scream at me but his vocal cords seemed to have given out. His voice was so hoarse.

Gils Pov

"You are so ungrateful!" That was it Gilbert had reached his limit. This accusation just was to harsh. I and ungrateful! I started trembling and closed my eyes. I couldn't control myself. I saw red. I unleashed all my fury. My mind was blank but still the words came out of my mouth. Things that I wanted to tell him a long time ago...just everything came out. "HAVE YOU EVER CONSIDERED HOW MUCH YOU PUT ME THROUGH!!? ", I wanted to put all my power into this last question but my vocal cords gave in. It sounded so weak...and I hated it. I hated being so vulnerable. "Yet....,damn I didn't want to cry, "you call me ungrateful" I started to cry. It was sp pathetic and uncomfortable. I hid my face in my hands. My knees buckled and gave in. I fell to the ground. I was disgusted by my own weakness but I couldn't stop it. It just came all out. I felt so..naked. I hated to loose control over my emotions like that. I took a few breaths and composed myself at least a little "What am I? Why am I still here? What do I stand for?"  These questions were going through my head for the past 30  years. West really did try something. But I didn't need more  money. I needed something that was impossible to give. a purpose and a clear identity. I was no longer Prussia but the GDR also didn't officially exist anymore. "Am I still the prussian freestate? Am I made up by Neonazis? This was my biggest fear..to represent the darkest chapter of German History. I demand answers that not even West....no Germany couldn't give me

Germany's pov

"What am I? Why I am still here? What do I stand for? Am I still the prussian freestate? Am I made up by Neonazis? Is that what holds me here? I sighed. My god I had been so naive. Yes there had been multiple  attempt to restore the prussian freestate. in the 90s and even today. These Reichsbürger Always get rejected though.  I should have seen it all along cause it makes so much sense. East Germany had no economic problem. At least it was not the biggest problem. An identity-issue never came to my mind yet it was so logical. I should have known this. I failed as a brother. I helped him to his feet and just hugged him. Tears started to made its why down from my eyes. I realized what his purpose was. I must have confused him because he didn't move.His shoulders tensed up too. "You are the Federal German Republic Gil...I refuse to give up on you. I am the reason you still exist because I don't want you to die. Will you celebrate this with me now?"

Prussia's Pov

".....I am the reason you still exist because I don't want you to die. Will you celebrate with me know? I am the Federal German Republic...that thought made me happy. I let go of my tension and just hugged him back. I really liked that. "Happy Reunion West", I said and smiled. "I am so happy to have you back.", was his answer. I acutally tightened my grip around him. I went through a lot and always recovered an so did Ludwig. We both would make it eventually. Healing all wounds and had to  wonderful future. "West.. We must succeed that the sun shines as beautiful as never before over Germany" I said. "Don't worry we will and not even some stupid politicians can stop us" said Ludwig. "