Insomnia

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by Bam_squared

by Bam_squared

When the dark night makes everyone sleep, when they fall asleep.

I can't sleep because of countless of thoughts.

I just want you to know, I can't take it anymore. I can't sleep when I have to so tell me now.

I only look up at the bright stars as I miss you.

Trapped in this tiny dull world, a world that consists of myself only now that you're gone.

All I could do was miss you and think of you.

Everything I wanted in a distance out of reach.

A life with you is really unbelievable.

Who are you thinking of now, I wonder.

Can I manage without you by my side?

Now I can't live without you,

Hold me tight again, hug me. I'm in need of your warmth, your touch, your all.

If you're not here I'm just a corpse, so how can I breath?

I'm going crazy and exhausted without you.

I'm just like a fool here, I'm trapped in those reminiscent memories of us.

Just here hating every single day, it makes me cry.

Even the nightmare I fear came true, I lost you.

It's been hard forcing myself to attend school when you're not there anymore.

I can't bare every single day, I'm just here pretending I can carry on.

All our memories are flashing on my head nonstop, still thinking what did I did wrong.

Can't help but blame me, I failed, I'm unworthy.

I already know love is so painful but
goodbyes are even more painful.

I was at my end, it's too painful for a feeling so strong.

Hee joon came in without permission as I was lying on my bed, listening to music that relates to my situation while staring empty at the ceilling.

I just stole a glance and didn't mind, these tears had dried up already anyways.

Just here lying down and cuddling his red jacket which, I didn't get the chance to return to.

He sits on my bed and looks at me, then speaks. My music is really loud and didn't quite hear what he said.

He took of one of my earbuds and whispered.

" Why not seize this chance and write a good story?"

A crazy suggestion but I want to try, it'll help me with these emotions I'm holding.