Lost and Found ( A Louis Tomlinson Fan fiction)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

OH MY GOD! NOOOOO! I feel so dizzy and was honestly gonna faint if I mum didn’t come over and pick me up. I feel my hot tears coming down without control. “mum, why?” I try to console myself but my voice cracked just saying those two words. “I got a job in London, its only 4 hours but its not gonna be the same that’s for sure” some people would say I was overreacting about only 4 and a half hours but that was miles and miles in my head. I just ran up to my room and cried until I ran out of my hot salty tears. I eventually fell asleep hoping I would wake up to it all being a dream.

I try opening my eyes and I think because of my tears they totally dried my eyes out. I would go wash them but I feel like crap this morning. I realized I slept with lou’s jumper and hugged it tight. Its not a dream. Were moving, actually moving. From here, Doncaster…My home and most of all from Louis. I don’t know how I am going to tell him. I only had a week left and this was crushing all my insides. I hear a faint voice downstairs. Lou. I jump off my bed. I run downstairs and almost fall on my way. “BOOBEAR” I don’t even give him time to turn around and already jump on him. “well, hello Ro…I am glad you are happy to see me” I nod and squeeze him tight. I hate thinking I will have to say goodbye. No rose, don’t think about that or you start tearing again I tell myself. “so I could tell your feeling better my rose, wanna go for some breakfast.” He smiles and melts my heart. “yes lou, I need to change first mate” I run upstairs and quickly wash my face. I apply some mascara and lipgloss with lou’s jumper not wanting to take it off and some jeans. I get a sudden vibration in my pocket. A text from Em.

“hey rose, i got your text now. I cant believe your moving in a week. I am gonna cry. R u telling lou. This is gonna break him. Call me later and we can go to the coffee shop to talk. Love u lots

I read the text and already want to cry again. I don’t want to leave Em either, I read the words “this will break him” maybe I cant tell him. Should I leave him with a letter. I feel if I just leave with a letter and no actual good bye he will break. But at the same time, saying goodbye while looking in his eyes, I wont be able to do it. I shake this thinking off before I breakdown. I walk downstairs ready to have a nice breakfast with my best friend in the whole world. I try not to think, maybe this is one of the last ones we will have.

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we walked to the coffee shop. We talked and he asked me what was wrong I think about 5 times. I could keep saying nothing but I wanted to tell him. “rose, do you want a tea?” I nod from the table as lou orders our drinks. I look at him with love in my eyes. i felt like now that I was leaving, my love was trying to come out as these last days approached. He looked cute today as always with a normal tshirt that hugged his fit upper body and skinny jeans with of course toms. Haha I laughed to myself thinking how much I will miss lou. He finally walks back over with the drinks smiling. “here is your tea young lady.” I laugh. “why thank you young man” he sits and I try to make conversation before I completely spill what is inside my brain right now. “so lou, hows Lucy” he looks at me and touches my cheek softly. “umm shes good ro, pretty good” I could tell he didn’t feel comfortable talking about her. “lou, u alright.” He smiles. “yea I just think our time is our time you know.” He was so caring like that. “I know lou, I touch his hand.”

“ro, you know I was glad I was at the tree those years ago,it was certainly where I needed to be because now I have a lovely friendship.” I cant help but tear. “Lou, we were meant to be friends forever, we will never part. We promised remember.” He laughed remembering the time little 8 year old us promised to always stay together. “my rose, what would I be able to do without you?” “well boobear, you tell me?” we laughed together in sync. “nothing at all hun” he says back making me blush. “well my dear, I needa go home and finish up the homework due Monday.” He grabs my hand and drags me up from my seat on the booth. We make our way down the street and to his home. “I get a text from mum”

hey, hun were leaving Monday, I am packing at the moment. Spend all your time with lou and friends! I know you are breaking about this but itll be fine sweets. Love u

MONDAY! Only tonight and tomorrow left. Lou noticed my face. “what happened rosie” I freeze. “umm lou I just need to stop off at my flat and ill come over in 5 minutes.” He smiled but also looked concerned. “ok my rose, ill be waiting.” I hugged him. I ran to my flat my tears already coming fast. “mummm!!” I scream as I run inside. I find her in the kitchen. “hun, what are you doing here.” I crying and pant from running. “I cant do it! i cant tell lou.. I will leave a note for him and jay could give it to him after we leave.” i said, panting after almost every word and cracking. “sweets, your leaving a note, he will be broken.” “mum if I say bye to him, I will not be able to do it. a note will make it less painful.” She nodds. “ I will tell jay to keep it a secret until we are gone.” I fall on my knees. “mum…..i love him.” She looks at me as if to say she already knew. “babe, I know, now go spend as much time together as possible, sleep over if you want sweets.” I nod and go up to my room. Most things I already packed for my mum. Seeing everything in boxes made me break inside. The only thing left out was a couple of outfits for tomorrow and the day we leave. I notice the picture of me and Lou and the necklace he gave me for my birthday last year. It was a heart and the back engraved “best friends are the best find.” It must have fallen off last night. I quickly put it on clutching it in my hands. I fold up the picture and “hi” I turn around and see Em. I hug her so tight. “Em..” I am crying so hard at this point. “Ro, your not telling him are you…” how did she know. I shake my head. “hes gonna break when he sees a note and not actual goodbye.” “Em, you know that if I say goodbye, I will not be able to leave, I love him so much.” She nodds. “ babe, ill be here tomorrow for a goodbye, I will miss you so much rosie.” She hugs me. “I know, its only london but its not home that’s for sure.” I notice Lou is waiting for me still. “ I am sleeping at Lou’s tonight Em. Come tomorrow around 12 ok.” She nodds and I could tell she is saddened. I hug her and she walks out.” I bring the boxes downstairs. My room is all but walls. The memories here are too many. I say bye to my mum and walk over to lou’s. I take in everything these passed few days, my home, the fresh doncaster air…. I will never be able to get over this. It was were I belonged. What was I going to do?