Lost and Found ( A Louis Tomlinson Fan fiction)

Chapter 7

Chapter 7

“rosie, finally" I finished work and your mum just called and said your sleeping over.” “yes lou, movie night?” he jumps up and down like a 5 year old. Ill miss that. “rosie, hey sweets can I see you a second.” Jay says from the other room. “hi jay, yes” she has saddened eyes. “ I heard everything from your mum, your breaking and I know Lou will to when he sees the note and no you. I will keep it just write up fast..” I just look at Jay. She has been like a second mum to me since I was a little kid. I hugged her so tight. “thank you so much, I will miss you.” I say with tears in my eyes once again. “sweetie, I will miss you too.” She leaves to go to the other room. “lou, go with dad to buy some groceries for dinner.” She walks back in. “ok, sweets. You only have now to write, they will be back soon.” I touch her hand and nod as if to say thank you. I quickly go up to lous room and get some paper from his closet. I sit on his warm bed and think about all the memories. All at once everything forms in my head making me have a headache and that wasn’t the only thing aching. This was it, I never thought I would ever be writing a goodbye letter to him. My heart was going to burst out of my chest. I sat and wrote everything I could possibly fit and thought about how in a day, I will be gone and Lou will be left with this note saying farewell……

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after an hour, I was finally done and my face must have been streaked with tears considering the paper definitely was. At least he would know how broken I was about this. I go downstairs and Lou is still not back. I walk in the kitchen barely able to stand up from the lack of water I had in my body. Jay runs over to me. “babe, your face is so pale and streaked.” I hold on tight to her shirt almost gonna faint. “jay, I don’t know how I even wrote this, I am breaking.” I look up and I could tell she had tears in her eyes. “babe, you will never lose him, even if you wanted to he would let you and you know that.” I nod and finally stand up on my own. I hand her the envelope. i quickly run the the restroom to clean up my face. i hold my face and sigh. “I am so sorry for whats about to happen.” I whisper. I heard louis voice from outside and run out. “hi my rose, im back and we could have our sleepover.” I run to hug him. I look up and he looks puzzled. We walk over to the couch and he puts in one of his favourite movies, “finding nemo”. He was such a kid sometimes. “lou?” I whisper. He looks at me and smiles. “yup my rose?” he says so jokingly. “nothing, you are just the best that’s all.” I look away from him but notice his eyes are still on me. he turns my chin and looks me deep in the eyes. His shiny, deep blues making me want to kiss him. Wait, NO! this is louis, my best friend. I snap myself out of it and he him whisper something. “No rose, you are the best.” i don’t notice a tear slowly runs down my eye. “lou, I love you.” He stares deep into my heart and slowly reaches out to cup my face in his hands. I didn’t believe it, I have waited for this to happen forever. My best friend, Louis just kissed me. It felt like a firework just went off inside me. He was so gentle and soft. I closed my eyes as he pulled away. “Ro, im so sorry.” He slid of the other side of the couch. I reach my hand to pull him closer. “lou, its ok, it was my fault.” He pulled me on top of him and I was sitting in his lap. “Rosie, I love you too.” This was the best and worst night of my life.

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next morning, I realize we are still on the couch. my head was on louis’ chest and I felt so safe. I remembered what happened last night and realized how wrong it was not only because he had a girlfriend but he was my closest friend ever. That wasn’t the thing I was most sad about however. Today was the day, I was leaving. We had a whole plan to not make lou find out until we were long gone….it broke my heart even to create this plan. I teared on his chest and looked up as he slept. He was perfect. His wispy straight hair never looked to neat but never too messy. His cute little nose was a nice size for his cute face. his lips were light pink and soft. Last night was the first time I ever kissed lou and it felt amazing to know finally how they felt. Everything about this boy was perfect and although he will always be my best friend, he will never be “mine”. I couldn’t help but slowly and softly kiss his cheek. He moved a bit and I felt bad to wak him up. his eyes fluttered open. “morning boobear.” He smiled. “morning love, how was your sleep?” “it was lovely lou, how was yours?” he nodded. “it was good, what are you doing today my rose.” I was going to cry, thinking about how if I didn’t move, we would have had one of “our” fun days. “nothing but your mum said your going out with your dad for few hours.” Speaking of Jay, she came in. “hey you two, Lou you are going out with dad soon. You two get changed and ill make breakfast.” What I was about to do today was the worst thing I would ever do and I would regret it from the rest of my life. I had no choice but to not tell him because I know in my heart, no matter what, if I looked into his eyes and said bye, I wouldn’t leave. I got interrupted by lous voice. “ hey rose, could you come up to my room for a second.” I nodded and we headed upstairs into his room. he pointed to his bed to tell me to sit down and he opened his cd player and put on a song. “Ive been practising this song and I wanted to sing it to you.” “ok lou, go ahead.” After a minute of just the instrumental part I knew what this was and I held my breath…

If I don't say this now I will surely break

As I'm leaving the one I want to take

Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait

My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh,

Be my baby

Ohhhhh

Oh, oh

Be my baby

I'll look after you

Those words, as they came out of his mouth made me want to start crying and hug him so tight and never want to leave his arms. as the music started to fade away I smiled and tried not to show how teared up I was inside. “lou, that was beautiful.” He smiles and sits down next to me. he sqeezes me tight. “Ro, promise me we will never part and we will always be how we are now. Please?” I look up and think about how I was about to lie to him and leave while he gone without a trace of anything but a note and leave him here. I knew that he would be broken but I just couldn’t tell him. I am finally able to get out. “i promise.” He nodd. “always?” i repeat. “always” he handed me a little box. I open it and it’s a beautiful locket. Inside, engraved, it says “youll never be lost. Always best friends. Love, Lou” he took it gently from my hands and placed it on me. I clutch it in my hand and whisper. “I love it boobear, ill wear it always.” He smiled and kissed me on the cheek. Ill never be lost…I am now though.