It's been a week since that conversation and mum told me I have a week to decide, 'no pressure'. Yeah well her entire relationship and my entire future is encapsulated into this one life changing decision. Which is why when I hesitantly tell her 'fine, lets go' her mouth forms into the biggest smile and she runs over, hugging me and whispering 'thank you' over and over again. I feel a weight being lifted off my shoulders because I know that Andrew makes her happy in a way dad never could. And I guess living in Australia and having a fresh start will be sort of fun, at least I hope so.
The only part that truly sucks is leaving my friends. We've become so close over this past year that leaving them will be like leaving a part of myself, and I don't know how ready I am to do that. It's taken me so long to begin accepting myself and to feel like i truly belong somewhere, and now that's all at risk. But whatever happens, at least for now, I can't let mum know of my anxieties. She gets too emotional, she'd begin to blame herself and get overwhelmed by guilt, and I just want her to finally be happy and put herself first.
And anyway, I'm not there yet. I'm not on the other side of the world just yet. I have some time, be it a little, but it's always something. And who knows, Australia may really be an amazing new chapter in my life. So for now I'm going to lock any unnecessary worries away and make every last day in London a memorable one.
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a very short chapter i'm soz but in the next one she's going to finally meet Luke!
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My stepbrother ~Luke Hemmings
Fanfiction"And after everything, you know I fucking care about you. But I can't show you the way I want to" {trigger warning: probs will contain some sort of smut, mentions of anxiety and OCD}
