Streaker || Luke Hemmings

c.3 Passive Depressive

•Luke•
2:30 am
Let me recap the events from the dock a couple of hours ago. We talked and talked to hours and she fessed up about her act. She told me she's only telling me all this because I seem "worth it" or whatever that means.

I walked her home and before she said goodbye she kissed me & it was like no kiss I've ever experienced before. It was full of something I couldn't describe it was just amazing. After that she ran back in her house. I couldn't stop touching my lips because her taste still lingered on me. Strawberries and tobacco but I didn't mind.

2:35am
I heard glass break from her open window and music lingering the house. My instinct was to go over and check it out of course because she could be in danger. I hopped out of my window with no weapon I mean I'm not prepared to fight someone off , I think the best I could do is stab someone with my lip ring.

I called her name in soft yells and I could hear her sobbing. "Go away Luke! You can't see me like this" she said in between sons. "What's wrong?" I yelled again "Fuck off Luke! Stay away from me!" She said and I heard another glass break "I don't care I'm coming up Cass" I said "I'm not unlocking the door go away" she said I looked at the mini cemented steps she had on her wall. They were patterned with flowers.

I climbed up and saw inside her room. It was as big as mine. There was a bottle of vodka and another of tequila both were empty and shattered on the floor.

"I said go away!" She yelled and then curled herself in a corner and cried. I ran to her side "Cassie just tell me what's wrong" I said "its my fault, I kissed you and it's probably going to ruin everything because I know I just met you but you're nice and kind and sweet and I'm going to fuck your life up if you let me in Luke, Jump out the window and leave before I ruin everything" she said between sobs. I know there has to be something deeper than me. "Cass, I kissed you back. I wanted to kiss you. I may not know you but I'm pretty sure you aren't a fuck up okay? There's a lot of time to tell me why you think that but stop hurting yourself like this because of me" I said "I'm going to push you away Luke I'm not worth it and it's so many other things I don't want you to find out about because you'll leave" She said.

I looked down at her shirt and it was stained red and clinging to her skin. "Cassie why are you bleeding!" I said and I stood her up. I lifted her shirt and there were cuts everywhere. New ones & old. "I didn't- I didn't mean to reopen the old ones but I can't concentrate when I drink too much" she struggled to get out. "You're so much better than this cassie. So beautiful and fragile and you can't do this!" I said "Its my fault Luke. My parents, my brother leaving, its all my fault it's - it's me , I'm the problem maybe I should leave" She said and I searched for those pony tail things that girls use. I found one and struggled to get her hair up "What are you doing Luke" she said as I laid her down. "I don't think we should fuck while I'm crying" she said laughing "Cassie as much as I'd love to be with you in that way, I need to take care of you first love" I said and she laid down, she'd probably forget about that because she drunk and hysterical.

I lifted her shirt over her body and put it to the side. I went into her restroom and wet a towel and carefully cleaned her stomach. I applied some Neosporin and dabbed up places. I rolled her stockings down and replaced them with a pair of sweats I found in her drawers. I taped to bandages on her stomach and placed a shirt over. "Why are you doing this, why are you being nice" She said almost on the verge of tears. "Because I know what it's like and I don't want you to feel like this" I said getting on the bed. "I'm tired Luke" she said and I opened the covers for her. I held her in my arms until she fell asleep. I searched her room until I finally found all of her blades in the tub. I took them and threw them in my pocket.

5:43 am
I kissed her forehead gently and picked myself up from the bed. I left a note with my number on it just in case.
I walked downstairs and out of her house. I picked up the extra key from the mat and opened the door to a worried mom. "Luke baby where were you!" She said worried "Mom I'm sorry I was next door with the neighbors daughter" I said and she raised her eyebrows "No mum, it's not like that. She's- she's like Andy" I said referring to my brother "She needs help Luke" my mom said worried. "I know but let me try to get through to her first mum please. It was going good with Andy until dad ruined it so please just let me help her" I said and my mom placed a hand on my shoulder "my baby. So kind hearted, I need to leave for work. Bring her for dinner tonight" she said and smiled at me. She kissed my cheek and left out side.

I couldn't sleep now of course. I wanted to wait up and be there for when she woke up. I'm going to help her. I care so much.