Sadden heart

My first crush

He of course is a friend at first it wasn't
Easy to get is attention It took me a couple of flirting at equality first is were I meant him , then he was available , but the smoking habit of his
I didn't like so in a note I told him " I could be with him if he didn't smoke so he did quit for awhile . Then I got tired of equality and decided to go to these new job site well just call A for now and of course guess what " yep". Thst guy friend was working there , but I was like flirting with him , I didn't know he was taking by crystal H. At the time , of course I didn't like that , I just was so anger and mad " didn't want to like her
He seemed happy with her
That didn't last long . Then I thought yeah he is single again , then I heared no. Now he is dating Glinda , oh I didn't like her either , he just kept being taken before I could tell him how I felt , then Glinda and him broke up and I was going to tell Floyd how I felt about him , but I asked him if he was still with Glinda he said yeah were back together . I was kind. Of sad and devestated . I knew the next girlfriend
I wouldn't want to be mean to , these one he is still with she is really the sweetest girlfriend he can have , I seen how happy see makes Floyd feel , after all the problems with his ex - girlfriend " telling Floyd's new girlfriend I was going to take Floyd away from her . " yeah right , Glinda saying that made us come close ,
In there eyes I see that they really Do love each other , that I can't and won't go back on my promise to Kelly that I promised her I wouldn't ever take Floyd away from her and she says I know you wouldn't . It still hurts.
But it's best to move on and I did .
Next journal entry well be later tonight