we were born to die

Chapter one: tears of tonight

Hey! This is the first official chapter to the book but if you haven't read the epilogue yet then definitely go back as it's really important and will help you understand what will happen in the coming chapters. If you have though then you can continue on: Thanks for your understanding and I hope you enjoy this chapter. Once again, if you have any comments, questions, or concerns feel free to voice them! Thanks again:)
-Caleigh

[Peyton]
We are in my room sitting on the hospital bed. The both of us are attached to IV's and oxygen tanks galore. It's getting late as the credits to 'Lord of The Rings' roll I look to the alarm clock which displays 11:37. We've watched this movie millions of times since we were kids but it's your favourite. I reach across your lap to the TV remote but you grab it first holding it out of my reach and you laugh. I'm so short, definitely shorter than you at least. Eventually after I give up on grabbing it from you we turn to the bedside window and watch the twinkling stars.

Eventually the stars blur as my tears start to gather and roll down my cheeks. Somehow I feel so defeated. I try not to make a sound. If you don't turn your head to me you won't see me. I can't help myself though. But just my luck you look over to me. You wrap your arms around me, pulling me close and you whisper to me.

'Tell me' I sigh and shake my head. I brush my tears away and say to you that I don't have words for this feeling.

'Throw out some words then' you say

'I don't know' I say

'Well that doesn't help much, why are you mad?' you say with a tone of confusion and sadness.

'I'm just mad at the world' I answer my voice cracking slightly

'Oh Peyton, you can't be' you say softly with your words hardly audible

'I know' I respond

Some point after I got to tired to star-gaze with you I fell asleep. When I awaken you are gone, the clock shines in darkness. I reach for the blind to roll up the window some more, the light shines into the room the same way my pain shines through the nighttime pain meds. It's only 6:28 but it feels later because of the sunlight seeping into the room from the summertime sun.

When I roll over to grab my phone I find a hand written note from you and and a polaroid picture of the stars. I grab the picture and drag the oxygen tank with me to the polaroid wall on the other side of my room and tack up the newest addition to the wall.

Hi! Alright tell me what you think. I'm trying my best but I am new to this so your thoughts and suggestions really help and are welcome at anytime. Thank you so much for a successful start. This might be the last chapter of the day before I get too busy but I'm trying to get a good start to this book early:)
-Caleigh