Pain Reliever

Beautiful Girl

Song(s) for this part:

"Mr. Brightside"- The Killers

"Speechless"- Michael Jackson

Dedicated to my amazing MJ fan, ZaynsSweety , the one who gave me the idea for this little poem of mine, and who passionately hates the first song that I suggested............*wink*.......

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Alarm was set at five in the morning,

Hard work upon fake beauty,

And only considered construction.

Thoughts voke and swirl through,

Standards set high to finally smile and walk up to him-

But it was too late.

Another beautiful girl came through.

And now my heart slowly releases a minor destruction.

Quotes over quotes to be yourself,

But easier said than done,

Especially around him.

He does nothing but brushes me off the shelf.

And still..

I have hope,

I have the confidence,

But with only the flash of his smile,

I am done,

And I walk away.

Knowing that my hard work was set back to none.

Chances over chances to finally redeem myself,

From this long, everlasting adoration.

To forget about what they call a "school-girl crush",

But explain to me why my heart is under occupation.

Seconds

Pass to minutes

Pass to hours

To days

To weeks

And years to come,

But it isn't over.

It beats too quickly,

It's hard to breathe,

It's hard to see.

Can he not see me cry?

Can he not see me internally die?

Can he not see me try?

But I forgive the penalties he's put upon my feelings,

Only because he is the only one to make my day.

From the sound of his shoes walking

To the sound of his smooth talking,

And especially from the rich, honey laughing,

And sometimes, I don't mind when he ignores the moment while we're passing.

And sometimes, it's hard to forgive someone who doesn't know the way you feel.

Sometimes, it's hard to even sleep

Knowing you'll wake up to the same routine.

Alarm set at five,

Try to talk to him

Fail

Then cry.

Then wait

And wait

And wait

And wait for him to notice

That he is the reason for these dreadful years,

He is the one that sinked your tears.

And even better,

He doesn't know why you're gone, and what's left.

He doesn't even know he's the reason for your affect.

Finally comes the day

That you finally change

No liquids or powders to hide your face

No alarm set, and you sleep in late

No need to get overworked, because you're depending upon fate.

Even without your cries,

Even without your trys

And lies

And hides,

It's all too late for you-

Another beautiful girl came through.

I won't like him,

I won't look,

I won't hear,

I won't stare secretly

When he's not looking near.

I will control my heart when he walks informal,

I will keep my head high and act normal.

Enough is enough, this curse is lifted above,

I won't dare say it-

I'm not in...

But it's routine.

My alarm is still set at five,

Fake beauty upon construction,

To only catch the attention

Of his eye.

I'm still here

He's still there

And too bad if it's not a happy ever after-

This was the page of many a chapter.

But even though,

I'll still care.