(Keegans pov)
I had just got out of the shower when I over heard Logan telling y/n that she may want to wish me luck then send me to speak with Ellias when I get out. After he left the room I left the bathroom to see y/n sitting on my bed with a look of worry plastered on her face. Deciding it would be for the best I went to head out and see Ellias but was stopped when I felt a hug from behind and heard muffled crying. Breaking free from her grasp I turned and told y/n not to worry that it was most likely just a scouting mission and that everything would be fine. I didn't really believe that but needed to get her to calm down so I could get the mission started as soon as possible. When she Finally calmed down I told her that I would be back before she knew it.
Well I finally got to Elias and find out I was only half right about what I told Y/N. I am going on a scouting mission but it will most likely take a few months to get all the information. So now I get to really hear her crying. I quickly went to the room to gather what I will need and inform y/n of the entire plan so that we get that out of the way. I am only doing this now because I want to get a move on before she wakes that way I don't have to endure saying bye. Sure that seems selfish but its that way because I am not good at saying goodbye to people I care about especially when I don't know if I will return. We never know what will happen so yeah I prefer not to endure saying goodbye, just incase I don't return because goodbye in my mind is a promise to return. Anyway when I got back to the room y/n was sitting there waiting to see what my orders were.
Quickly I sat down and took a big breath before I started to explain everything. As soon as I finished talking she got up hugged me then said she would be back. I assumed she was gonna go protest me going by myself and after 15 minutes that assumption was confirmed to be correct. Elias and (y/n) walked in just as Elias finished saying that they would see what I think about it. Before either actually asked me I told them I am going alone. That sparked a screaming fit from y/n. Once that was over I finally got to lay down and get some sleep so I could get up early and head to where my mission was. Once I woke the next morning I grabbed my gear and headed to the chopper so I didn't have to face y/n and hear more bitching about how I should have back up because I wasn't fully healed. I hated the fact y/n was acting like we were in some sort of relationship and that y/n needed to look after me. Part of that was do to the fact that since I was 16 I watched my own back till I joined the military. Anyway I finally got to my destination at about 17:00 (5 o'clock pm).
A few days passed as I watched the enemy leaders I was following and hacking into their comms to gather intel for future use. It had started to feel like I was missing something but at the time I hadn't realized what or should I say who was missing. Although it seems stupid I was still pissed that y/n had yelled at me about this but it had proved that I should have stayed away from y/n as much as possible. I had finally got to my hideout and stopped to think about some things. For the most part my mind stayed focused on the intel but after about half an hour my mind started to drift toward y/n. It started out just wondering if y/n was doing alright then quickly turned to darker thoughts about y/n. I swear I tried to shake those thought but could and soon I couldn't stop fantasizing about y/n. Despite that I stayed true to what I told Merrick though, I still didn't contact them at all. Well I won't sit here and bore you with the minor details of what happened later, so about 11 I went to bed so I could repeat the process I had been doing for a week by this point. The dream I had that night woke me but not because of fear but because of the rage I felt in the dream. The dream I had was of y/n hooking up with the low life that had beat y/n before y/n joined the military. I could never explain why I had that dream or why I got so angry over it since at the time I hadn't realized yet that I was starting to care about y/n.
I spent the next 2 weeks doing the same shit every day and night, each night though a different dream about y/n would occur. It was beginning to get on my nerves and I thought maybe if I spoke to y/n maybe the dreams would stop. So I called back to home base and talked to y/n only to check and make sure things back home were doing well. After I got off the phone I laid down for bed hoping the dreams would stop but that didn't happen. The dream I had that night was worse than the ones before it and way more graphic. Finally the last day for me to be away from home arrived and I went out to get the last bit of intel I could but things didn't go as planned. When I got to the location of the final bit of intel something felt off like I was being watched. That just so happened to be the case as I found out by Rorke showing up in front of me with a gun pulled out and ready to fire. I went to grab my side arm and as I was about to grab it he shot me in my arm. I know it was stupid of me to try and get my gun when he already had his pulled, but in my defense I didn't think he would actually shoot since we were near a barrel that would explode if it was hit. Anyway he walked up to me and started screaming questions at me to get as much information as possible. The only thing I told him was he would never get answers from me. The next thing I know three gun shots ring out and Rorke starts bleeding on me and right before four very familiar faces appear Rorke ran. I am not sure how the ghosts found me but I damn sure am glad they did or who the hell knows what would have happened. After they bandaged my arm we infiltrated the building where I was meant to get the location of a few dangerous off shore weapons sites. After we got that we headed home and I am more than excited but to keep up the silent non feeling persona I didn't bother showing it.
