𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗆𝖾, 𝗇𝖾𝖾𝖽 𝗆𝖾. 𝘺𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘣𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘺𝘶

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〔2O〕
SOOBIN'S POV
— always him ❜

∘ ─── 🌠༉─── ∘

"beomgyu-"

i could not continue what i was going to say when you suddenly kissed me.

i was surprised but i immediately closed my eyes and kissed you back.

things went fast.

our kiss deepens.

i no longer noticed that you were lying on the bed while i was on top of you.

keep kissing you.

i can taste the bitter liquid in your mouth.

and that is beer.

you're drunk.

so now you kissed me.

but i heard what you said.

you love me.

is the reason you kissed me is because you love me?

or did you just kiss me because you were drunk?

the kiss stopped.

i was stopped.

there is something wrong.

seems to be wrong.

i looked at you and saw you were asleep.

i looked at your innocent face.

i smiled a little.

i don't know why i feel this way.

i must be happy because i heard from you that you love me.

but why is that not how i feel?

earlier, while we were kissing.

i thought there was a spark.

i thought i would feel something.

but there is none.

i felt pure bitterness.

and there's no love.

tell me, do you really love me?

i sighed and stood up as you suddenly grabbed my wrist.

i lay down next to you and you hugged me tightly.

my heart ached again when i saw your tears dripping down your cheeks.

"d-don't leave me please.. stay here.. please.."

"beom-"

"s-stay with me, jjunie.. i love you.."

i blinked.

at the same time my tears flowed one after another.

i'm right.

there is something wrong with what is happening.

you don't really love me.

you just want me when you need me.

but you don't love me.

yes, you love me.

but as a best friend.

not like you love yeonjun.

because even he always hurt you.

he is still the one you love.

and me, who are always here for you.

you can not love as much as you love him.

because it's always yeonjun.

always him.

END