𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗆𝖾, 𝗇𝖾𝖾𝖽 𝗆𝖾. 𝘺𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘣𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘺𝘶

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〔18〕
SOOBIN'S POV
— regret ❜

∘ ─── 🌠༉─── ∘

you started running before yeonjun could ever get close to you.

hueningkai looked at me, obviously wondering what was going on.

but this is not the right time to explain.

i immediately ran to follow you.

i know you want me right now.

i know you need me.

i stopped running when i saw you stop at an unoccupied park.

i would have approached you when someone approached you first.

its him, yeonjun.

so i stayed where i was, watching you two.

"beomgyu, please, let's talk."

"but we don't need to talk anymore, yeonjun. everything is clear to me."

"but-" you immediately cut him off.

"it's clear to me that you just had a relationship with me to get closer to soobin."

my eyes widens at what i heard.

m-me?

i saw you smiled at him sadly, "it's clear to me that soobin is the one who you really like, that you just used me."

i was speechless.

don't know what to say to what i heard.

does that mean i was the one who he really likes and not you?

does that mean he just had a relationship with you to get closer to me?

then there, i connected everything.

how yeonjun smiled and looked at me.

how his cheek blushed every time we looked at each other.

and i remember, the two of us met.

that's why when we met at the cafe he said he was happy to see me and talk to me again.

because we have known each other for a long time.

and he still remembers me.

but i forgot him.

right, he's my first crush.

yeonjun was my first crush.

but that was just before.

"but beomgyu i'm sorry for what i did, i'm sorry."

i looked at yeonjun when i heard his voice crack.

and like you, he is crying too.

"n-no, you won't fool me again."

"i'm not fooling you, beom. i really regret it because i used you. i'm sorry for that, i'm so sorry."

he tries to hug you but you just keep pushing him away.

"y-yeonjun, stop.."

"beomgyu please, i'm sorry for everything. please come back to me, i don't like soobin anymore because choi beomgyu.. i like you."

i feel my chest tighten at what i heard.

while you're just staring at him, unable to speak.

"no. i love you, beomgyu.."