Mafumafu one-shots and AUs [read last chapter]

Trainway to Heaven

Alternate Title: Train to Heaven

I knew I was as good as gone. Every day I grow weaker and weaker, my condition getting worse and worse. Nowadays, I just lay on the hospital bed. The clean white linen sheets with the soft white pillow and blankets, and the smell of disinfecting alcohol was a daily routine. I laid here, the top half of my body raised up, Soraru-san's hand clasped on mine. His eyes were red and puffy from crying. Ama-chan, Uratan and Sakatan sat across from him.

I knew today was the day. I looked blankly up at the soft white ceiling, a small piece of paper in my hand. Soraru-san's tears started pouring again like a waterfall as he noticed my eyes glazing over.

"Please move on and forget me."

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I sat on a steadily moving train, not too fast, not too slow, just perfect, fast enough to see the memories I see pass by from outside the window. The scenes, those happy and sad scenes of that day...

Perhaps this is what they mean by your life flash between your eyes before you die... for I am neither alive nor dead as of right now.

The happy memories of that day when me and Soraru-san were slowly dancing to the soft yet upbeat music in Hawaii with Ama-chan, Kashitarou-san and Sakatan and Uratan...

The sadness of that day when Soraru was involved in a car accident.

The memories we shared from concerts and screaming fans and dancing in the rain...

Oh those wonderful wonderful days, those beautiful experience-- something that will never happen now... 

So you should learn to enjoy the beauty of life Soraru-san-- for me Soraru-san, for me...

The sakura petals slowly drifted down, tinted a little brown.

The doors to the train slowly pushed open, I stepped out. Walking into the distance, not knowing when it'll end. I looked back;

I wanted to cry but no tears came out. I wanted to talk, to speak, but I couldn't. I want to hug you but I no longer exist in this prepossessing world. So please Soraru-san, please move on, because,

"I love you."

Heheh I love writing Angst.

Shorter than I intended but yolo :D

Extra: 

"I will be waiting in heaven"

I know the song lyrics don't match the story-- but I just thought the tone really fit the story :D