chance connection |2| [zarry]

onehundredsixtyone

my love
5:32
r u busy?

the wife💛
5:37
Give me 5

the wife💛
calling

You're awake.

I set an alarm.
I wanted to talk before Freddie wakes up.

Thank you.

Yea. Babe. You know I say stuff and it comes out wrong sometimes.

I know. And I know you're awful at communicating as well.
But still.

No, you know it's good when you call me out on my shit.

Ok, so you see my point?

Yea.
It's just. It's been really fast and like, if I fuck it up, it'll won't be only shitty for me but for Freddie as well.
And it went really fast like it went so quickly.

I know! Don't you think I know?

Don't get upset again, I'm just saying.

I just feel like we knew having the same conversation over and over again.

We kind of are...

Yea, see. And it never leads anywhere because you promise to do better and I promise not to freak and then we're apart for like a week and we have the same fight again and I don't know how to move forward because every time I try it's like you're taking a step back.

I'm not.

It feels like it.
You moved in permanently and then I offer to help with Freddie's school and you're all defensive again.

I'm not though. Pulling away or whatever you wanna call it.  I just don't need you to spend money on us like we're gonna leave you if you don't.

I'm not-

Just let me say my piece now.
It kinda feels like it sometimes.
And it's you who is just waiting for me to leave you. You talk to Perrie about how you're scared I'm gonna leave you.
Babe, you talk to my ex about that.
How little faith in me do you have?

I don't think of Perrie as your ex, specifically, to be honest.

Still.
And for what it's worth. I'm really not going to leave you. I'm really not.
And I know your life is fucked a bit but I'd say we've been dealing with it alright.

Yea, you have. So far.

See! You do that all the time.
You keep waiting for me to leave you.

I'm not. It's just that you've not even dealt with half of it yet.

Yea, but I've dealt with it until now and there might always be something unexpected, sweetheart. You can't know what will happen, not with any relationship.
So either you trust me or you don't.

I do. I do.

Do you?

Yes. I do. Zain. I don't think I've ever trusted someone like you. Except my parents and Gemma.
But I think that makes it even scarier.
I just-