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⚠️Part 2 of Chapter 4 Taekook⚠️

*⚠️Trigger Warning! Includes self harm and depression and anxiety and attempted suicide. Please do not read if you are easily triggered by these things⚠️*

Suggested song: Winter Flower by Younha ft. RM

Jungkook POV:

"Here, you can sleep in the guest room Kook, don't be afraid to ask me for anything ok?" Said Taehyung. 

"Ok, thank you hyung."

"Sleep well Jungkook." After saying goodnight, Taehyung turns on his heels and leaves the room. I lay down in the bed and fall asleep.

"Your nothing"

"You should go die fucking bitch"

"Disgrace"

"Your worthless"

"You don't deserve to live"

"Your a disappointment and a mistake"

"You dont deserve anyones kindness"

"No one loves you"

I wake up in a sweat. I look at the time and its 3 am. I burst into tears as I remember the harsh words my parents and ex-boyfriend told me. Their words cut into me so deep. It left scars that would never heal. I walk towards the kitchen and grab a knife. I take a deep breath as I place the knife on my wrist.

"You deserve this!" I shout and slit my wrist. I fall to the floor and drop the knife. I cry hard and don't stop. I hold where I cut my wrist and cry silently.

"Why doesn't anyone care for me?" I pick up the knife again and continue to put more cuts on my arms and let the pain continue on to me.

3 Weeks Later

For the past 3 weeks I have been cutting. I started off with just putting cuts on my arm and wrist but after a while I started putting cuts on my legs, hands, and neck. Every other night I go into the bathroom to do this and it hurts so much every time. But I deserve this. Until today, I decided that I'm going to die.

"Good night Jungkook, sleep well." Taehyung flashes a quick smile at me but I turn my back away from him and go to my room. When I'm sure he is asleep, I write my final words on a paper and say my goodbyes to Tae, thanking him for taking me in. I grab a knife and get ready to stab myself. I hold my breath as I hold the knife towards me.

"Ok, 1 2 3-" I can't do it. What am I doing? If I end my life here, will I actually be happy? I drop the knife on the floor and my body falls hitting the ground. I can't do it.

"Why am I so weak?!" I sit there and cry hard, my cuts on my body make me feel weaker. I feel more pain everywhere.

"What did I do to deserve this?!?"

Taehyung POV:

I hear something in the kitchen, someone is crying. I run to the kitchen and see Jungkook on the floor, his wrist, legs, and arm bloody and tears streaming down his face. There is a letter on the counter 

"Jungkook what are you doing?!?!" I shout. I run next to him and throw the knife away. I look at him and can see he is in pain. I see all the cuts around his body.

"Jungkook how long have you been doing this? Why are you hurting yourself?!"

"B-because I d-deserve it." He looks down and puts his hands on his face, his tears are like waterfalls.

"Please, d-don't hit me. I-I'm sorry."

"Kook, why would I hit you? Why are you apologizing?"

"Everytime I c-cry I was always hit. My family disowned me for being gay and when I cried my father beat me and kicked me out of the house. H-he said t-that I was a disgrace. When I cried around Keith he w-would throw me against the wall a-and throw glass at m-me and I-" he can't finish his sentence, its over come with cries and is too much for him to bear.

"Kook, listen to me." I put my hand on his chin and raise his head so he can look at me. He sniffles and listens to what I'm about to tell him.

"That is not your family. If they can't accept who you are, then you need to find a better family. A family who will love and accept you for who you are. You do not deserve to suffer. You deserve to live a good life." I wipe away his tears from his face.

"I'm going to help you Kook, no matter what. You can count on me to help you. One step at a time. But you need to stop hurting yourself." I let go of his face and pull him into my arms. He flinches but realizes that im giving him a hug. He curls up on my lap and tears continue to stream down his face.

"I-I'm sorry for waking you-" I stop him from apologizing by putting my finger on his lips.

"Stop apologizing Kook. You didn't do anything wrong." I help him up and grab a chair for him to sit on. I clean his wounds and bandage him up and listen to him on his backgrounds story. From the beginning to end. He has been through so much, and he had no one to help or support him.

"Jungkook, I want you to know something," He wipes the remaining tears on his face away and nods waiting for me to tell him something.

"From now on, if you need any support, love, or someone to care for you, come to me. I will be there for you. I swear with my life I will stay by your side until you survive." (I was listening to RM and Younha's Winter Flower and felt the need to put my favorite lyric in here.) I walk the younger to his room

"Hyung?"

"Yes dongsaeng?"

"C-can you stay with me? Until I fall alseep?"

"Of course kookie." I lay next to him and watch as he slowly dozes off. I get up and lay a blanket over him and bid him goodnight. As I walk away, I make a promise to him and myself while I'm leaving the room.

"Im never gonna let anyone hurt you again kookie," I whisper
"No matter what I will do what I must to help you. I promise."

Part 3 coming up (Maybe, I'm crying myself while writing this.)