Wildest Dreams| Taekook| Completed

36.

"Go away" Taehyung's spoke with his wavering voice and was about to shut the door when jungkook held it.

"Taehyung. Just please listen to me" jungkook pleaded.

"What's left to listen jungkook? The story how you played me?" taehyung was on the verge of crying but he doesn't wanna cry in front of jungkook.

Because that'll show jungkook how much taehyung loves him.

Jungkook held taehyung's wrist and the touch caused taehyung's heart to flutter. He hated it. 

He flinched and pried his wrist out of his grasp. Jungkook was shocked but he called upon it.

"Taehyung.....just hear me out. The fact that i had a girlfriend...i won't deny it. I know at first, i hated you, i didn't like the way you were so good at your job, the way you were so happy and jolly with everyone. At first, it was hatred, then it turned into curiosity and i just wanted to know the reason why you were.....so good. I wanted to take that thing away from you, i don't know why but i did. I  wanted to tease you and rip you out of that good demeanor and whenever i saw your discomposed face, it satisfied me. But after that time when we spent the night practicing in the grassland and when i kissed you, my heart felt giddy and seeing your flustered face that time, it didn't satisfy me instead it made me more curious about how many other faces can you make. I made sure to remind myself that it was nothing but me getting worked up and therefore i continued to tease you, ignoring my own messed up feelings.

You were persistent. You never gave into my teasing which was the reason i thought about trying to act like your friend until you gave in and i would have won....something that i didn't even know what i was competing for. But that smile on your face, it was genuine. The times we spent together, it made me happy. And then i realized that now...i don't want to take that smile away from you but the reason for that smile. I was scared, realizing that i was doing something that i never planned to do in the start. Every kiss we had, changed something in me and when we did it; i realized i had fallen in love with you. I would have never gotten back into the reality if my girlfriend wouldn't have called me that time and told me that she wants to make our relationship public. That was when you came, you held me so lovingly that now it was me who wanted you to break me and watch my discomposed face. But...i just couldn't come up, ironic to say, i was frightened. The way you stroked my head, waiting for me to fall asleep, I was scared to tell you the reality, because i, myself didn't want to face it.

I tried telling you a lot of times but either the timing was wrong or my courage wavered but i wanted to tell you everything before it got much worse. When i reached home, i immediately denied chan-hee that i won't be making my relationship public but she fought with me saying she'd do it anyway. The only thing i didn't wish to see was your broken face, but when we arrived i could see your smile fading and that hurt my heart. I wanted to break up with her after the premiere because she would have caused some inconvenience and i didn't want this because it was our first film together, but to save the film, i ended up losing you. I am a jerk, an asshole, call me whatever you want, tae but please forgive me. I can't stay apart from you now, when you've showed me how good it is to be with you" jungkook started sniffling his tears at the end.

Taehyung's head hurt and so did his heart. He scoffed.

"I don't know if you're still acting or not, jungkook. So please stop" he wiped his silent tears away.

"I am not acting, taehyung! I love you!" jungkook said in a loud voice.

"You don't jungkook! You and your made up story make me sick!" taehyung broke down on the floor. Jungkook decided to reach out for him but his hand was smacked away from jimin who decided to step in since taehyung was on the edge.

"Don't" he snickered and closed the door.

Jimin hugged the wailing taehyung and was worried to death for him.

"I don't want to believe him, jimin"