I'm fine (Min Yoongi ff)

Chapter twelve

He got up again on Monday morning, got dressed, ate breakfast, and escorted Jitae to school before heading to his class. When he entered the room, Ani was already sitting in her seat. She raised her head slightly and when their eyes met, she turned around, red as a tomato. Yoongi took his permanent place behind her and she just hunched.

He waited 45 long minutes. When lesson ended Ani turned to him and nodded her head for him to follow her. He immediately followed the girl, who came to the window sill at the end of the corridor, where there were fewer people, and perched on it. Yoongi did the same, sitting in the other corner.

"I'm sorry for what happened at the party. Yooji told me" Ani muttered, blushing once more "And thank you for taking me to her"

"No problem" Yoongi assured with a smile "This is what friends do"

Ani's blue eyes widened to impossible dimensions as she turned her head towards him.

"Friends?" she repeated after him "Are we friends?"

"Aren't we?" Yoongi was surprised.

"I don't know, I..." Ani hesitated "Would you like us to be?"

"Yes" Yoongi admitted "Very"

"Why?" Ani narrowed her eyes, looking at him searchingly "I don't understand you at all, Yoongi. Why are you still following me like that? Even if I'm rude to you or don't speak to you, you… never stop. I don't know what to think about it, because lately I've been seeing you even more than Yooji. What do you want from me?"

Yoongi shuddered. She started off that nicely and ended with a sharp word that made him feel uncomfortable.

"I just like you, Ani" he confessed, rubbing his neck with his hand in nervousness "And... I wish you would like me too"

There was an awkward silence for a moment. Yoongi swallowed and pulled himself together.

"What do you say?" he smiled at her "Do you want to be my friend?"

Ani didn't seem convinced. Her blue eyes studied Yoongi as if she was trying to see through his intentions and see if he was really telling the truth.

"I think so" she nodded, then smiled herself "So we can trust and rely on each other from now?"

"Exactly" confirmed Yoongi and immediately took the opportunity "And if so then… I want to ask you something. We can talk about anything, right?"

Ani raised her eyebrows at him questioningly, not quite sure what he was going to say.

"Your hands" he started and her expression faded instantly "Are you doing this with a razor blade? Or scratching yourself to blood?"

"With a razor blade" she almost whispered "And then I scratch the scabs"

"Please stop" Yoongi's voice sounded pleading "I don't want to see you like this. I don't want… anything to happen to you. Promise me you will never cut again"

"I can't" Ani mumbled tearfully "I… don't always control it"

"What does it mean?"

"It's complicated" Ani turned her head and looked sadly at the window.

"Explain to me" Yoongi asked "We are friends after all, right? I want to understand you"

Ani looked away from the glass. She was staring out the window, but her eyes were not focused on anything in particular, just hung somewhere in space.

"Sometimes I have attacks" she whispered, not paying even a little attention to Yoongi "Then the physical pain distracts me and helps me come back to reality"