World Outside (On Hiatus)

Aftermath

After the incident in Singto's restaurant, I was still shaken. Even if it brought me a new friend, I couldn't forget it. Singto was very kind to us, especially me. He practically begged us to stay and enjoy the food. At first, I didn't want to. I was scared and tired after my panic attack. The only thing I wanted was to go home and hide under my blanket for the rest of the day. In the end, we stayed. The atmosphere was really gloomy, and I was happy when we bit Singto goodbye and went home. 

I didn't speak for the whole ride. As soon as we arrived, I immediately went to my room and locked the door. My mind was full of anxieties. Not only I made an idiot out of myself, but I also spoiled my friends day. Why I am such a hindrance, good for nothing and burden. I felt my eyes water again. I took Bibii out of her cage, burying my face into her soft fur, seeking her comforting warmness. I let tears flow down. Only Bibii was allowed to see me like this. Only her and no one else. 

"Gun?" A soft voice called me from behind the door. "Are you alright?"
It was New.  He sounded concerned. 

"Hey buddy, can you answer?" This time it was Tay. He seemed worried too. 

"Cutie, are you alive there?" Off called me too. I was frightened and at the same time worried. My brain couldn't function well, and the single thing I wanted right now, was to be alone.
"Gun, did you changed your clothes?" Asked New worriedly again. 

"You will get sick Gun." Pleaded Tay. 

"Let me be," I whispered into the Bibiis fur. 
"Cutie, do you need help?" Asked Off again.
"Let me be," I replied little louder.
"Gun, did you say something?"New spoke up. I was irritated. Why can't they leave me be? I don't want to talk to them right now. I need to be alone for a while, to calm myself down.
"Let me be. I wan to be alone!" I screamed at the close door. Tears streaming down my face, as I whispered again "I just want to be alone." 

I heard shuffling behind the door as my friends got away. After a while, someone hesitantly knocked. 

"Gun... please get changed and go to sleep. I know you are tired and frustrated." There was a moment of silence and then the voice continued, "We won't disturb you again." A little sigh escaped my cousin's lips. 

I know he was concerned for me. But I didn't have a strength to deal with him, Tay nor with Off. I tenderly caressed silky fur in my arms. Exhaustion of today's events hit me like a speeding train, and I find myself yawning. My body was shivering lightly, as my clothes were still wet from the drinks that landed on me. I put Bibii back to her cage and went inside the bathroom. Hot shower was one of the things that help me relax after a panic attack.  I throw away soaked clothes on the floor not wanting to deal with them at the moment. With the rest of my energy, I balanced myself on the seat in the shower and let the hot water to warm me. I felt a bit better instantly. I don't know how long I stayed inside the bathroom. The tiredness got me truly bad, and my body made every move automatically to get me inside the bed. In no time I was lying down, covered head to toes and letting warmness of the blanket lull me to the soothing sleep. 

"Do you think he's sleeping?" The soft whispering woke me up from slumber. 

"Maybe. He was so quiet for almost 3 hours." Remarked Off. 

"He should eat," joined New. 

"Let's wake him up."

"No Tay. Are you nuts?!" New raised his voice. 

I moved in the bed slowly to get used to my surrounding after the nap. I moved myself to the sitting position and rest my back on the headboard, listening quarrelling of my friends, echoing from behind the door. 

"I think you two already did." Noted sarcastically Off. 

"Oh shit." 

"Yeah, shit." snarled my cousin.