Locked Feelings

Chapter 11 : Something New

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Sterling's POV

Okay,all I have to do is find Rachel and confess to her.Easy peasy,I think.I'm scared,and crazy nervous right now.

Is this even the right choice? I mean the signs were all pretty obvious at the fundraiser and she's also seems pretty into me.

How about April? I heard a voice whispered at the back of my mind.

I stopped,and pulled the car over.I take a deep breath and part of me don't want to be with Rachel but the other wants to.

I called Blair and I couldn't help but fidget around and by the time Blair picks up,a trickle of tears falls down my cheeks.

"Blair...I can't.I want to be with April." I cried even more,and I could hear Blair sigh over the phone.

"But you can't,Sterl.She's with Luke and for now,we don't know when or who she'll choose.I don't want you to be waiting for April's choice,and knowing after that she'll choose Luke.It'll only break you more." Blair says,and I bite my lips from crying even more.I took deep breaths and calm myself down.

"You're right,and I don't like it when you're right." I whined and let out a small pout,even though Blair can't actually see it.

"I know you're pouting and I know you love me." I rolled my eyes,chuckling.

"It doesn't hurt to have someone who could fill in and help you cope.Exhibit A,Rachel." Blair suggests.

"You want me to use her?" I asked in disbelief.

"No,it won't feel like that either since you like her too.Something to hold on to until you wait for April."

"Ughh,why does it have to be like this.Okay,I'll text you if anything comes up." I respond and ended the call.

Rachel would be out by now.I stood beside one of the nearby benches,as a crowd of sophomores and juniors comes rushing out of the campus doors.

I scanned through the crowd and there she was,laughing with her friends.I smiled and briskly walked up to her,squeezing my way in and apologising throughout.

"Hey Rachel." I called out and she turns,and I could see she was surprised.I mean who isn't.I'm the girl that she wanted to confess to but I ruined it.

"You guys can go ahead." Rachel told her friends and walked past us,eyeing us.

"So..." She asks,and shrugged.There were still more students filing out of school,making it hard to speak.

"Uhh...do you want to sit down and talk?" I suggested and she nodded.I take her hand and lead her to one of the benches.

"So what's going on?" Rachel asks again as we sat down.I didn't know how to start.

"I..uh know that you wanted to confess something to me at the Italian restaurant and after." I started and she laughs nervously.

"Yes and I do." She remembers and takes my hand.

"Sterling,I like you a lot.I know it's too fast and you know nothing much about me but when I'm with you,I just feel less lonely and you happen to take that loneliness away with your smile and weird self." She lets out and I couldn't help but smile.