Devil Inside (Ben Bruce)

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Lily's POV:

 When I woke up, I found that I hadn't moved at all in my sleep. But Ben clearly had. I was curled up in a ball on the edge of the bed, and his head was at the edge of his pillow closest to me. The sheets around him were all strewn about. And Danny was still snoring like a train. James sat up and hit Danny with his pillow before turning back over and then falling right back asleep like nothing had happened. I sat up myself, wanting to see what time it was. When I looked at the clock, it read that it was eight in the morning. I could continue to sleep, but I didn't get a shower last night. And since no one here is showing any signs of waking up within the next ten minutes or so, I should have time to take a quick one. 

So I grabbed my toiletries, and a change of clothes for the day, and went into the bathroom. Ben was the only one to use it for a shower last night since James fell asleep almost immediately after the movie started, and Danny doesn't strike me as much of a shower person anyways, but he also hadn't taken one last night. Yet somehow, there were still four hotel towels on the floor, all having been used. I sighed, I guess since there are no others left, I'll have to use on of them. I picked up the towels and hung them up on a rack one by one. I brushed my teeth first, since I'd forgotten to do that last night, and then proceeded to step into the shower. 

After I'd finished, I decided not to bother with drying my hair. Usually I did because I hated the feeling of wet hair over my blind eye, but since Ben seemed to like it and everyone was still asleep anyways, I kept it off of it. I know I shouldn't be embarrassed by it, but somehow I did. 

Especially after.....that......happened. 

I shuttered at the memory, covering my ears to keep the voices from flooding in to haunt me once more. When I exited the bathroom, the room was as I'd left it. I found my notebook, which Ben had so rudely thrown to the floor last night, and then returned to the drawing that I'd begun to work on before hand. I don't know where I was going with it, but it had somehow ended up being two birds flying together. Strangely enough, it reminded me vaguely of the birds on the tattoo on Ben's chest. Maybe my new direction does have some sense to it after all. I continued on with the drawing, adding more detail and a little bit of color and shading. 

Danny's snoring became rather loud again, and finally James pushed him off of the bed. Danny fell to the floor with a grand thud and woke up at once. "Fucking hell!" He cursed. 

I shushed him, mostly because the other two were still sleeping, but also because I just didn't want him yelling at the moment. Danny grumbled something to himself, grabbing something plastic before going into the bathroom with it. I caught a glimpse of it, and I immediately knew what it was. I stopped him from closing the door. "I want to try it, " I stated. 

Danny's eyes grew wide. "I don't think that you want to that. " 

"Just once. We don't have to tell anyone. " This was by far the worst thing that I'd ever done, but I wanted it. I really did. 

Danny sighed before taking me into the bathroom with him. He closed the door. He showed me the needle and the rubber. "You tie this around you arm. " He looped the rubber around his arm a few times. "And then you put this into your veins here." He pointed to his inner elbow before sticking the needle into his arm and pushing the drug into his veins. He handed both items to me. I quickly ran the needle under water to clean it off. I copied him, feeling a rush of something as I injected myself with heroin. 

"That feels so good," I confessed quietly. 

"Okay, but you cannot be near Ben for a while. He's gonna try to get me help if he knows that I did it again," Danny warned. 

"What about me? " I asked. 

"I don't know. I'll probably get in trouble for that too. But he might be mad at you." 

"He won't yell, will he? " I asked nervously. 

"I don't know. If you didn't want to get into trouble, then you shouldn't have taken it in the first place." 

I thought about that. Danny was right. If I really didn't want anything bad to happen, then I should have thought of that first. Now I would just have to deal with the high and then the comedown that followed.