Chasing Deirdre

Chapter 1

I sighed. Calculus is a piece of shit. Why do I need to study these things?

I am currently inside the library. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit, natatanga lang talaga siguro ako. Wala pa ako masyadong kaibigan kaya hindi ko alam kung saan ako tatambay. I am different from my block mates. Some of them are couples, barkada, and besties who loves Calculus and any Mathematics stuffs. While here I am, sitting inside the library, absorbing this book of Calculus. I am a freshman and it's currently my first month inside the university.

I don't like being super friendly anymore. Many people misunderstood me and my whole existence. It's better to be careful than be friends with plastics, right? Most of my friends were all boys. I am always one of them. Why? Because I found them true to me. If I made a mistake, they won't tolerate me. Walang kampihan at walang kaartehan. Babae ako pero hindi ko rin talaga magets minsan 'yung takbo ng isip nung iba.

I remember when I was in Senior High School. I was part of a group of friends. We're five in the group and we're all girls. One day, I realized they were all avoiding me for a crazy reason. I confronted them and did you know what's the reason behind it?

"Ang landi mo kasi at sipsip ka sa teacher." Lea said, my so called 'friend'.

Like seriously? We're not kids anymore to feel insecure just because our teacher noticed me for being bubbly and active in class. Do I even need to get their permission before doing something?

"Tss." naiinis tuloy ako pag naaalala ko.

Sinarado ko na ang mga librong kinuha ko sa bookshelf kanina. Inayos ko na rin ang mga gamit ko at tumayo para maibalik na 'tong mga libro na hindi ko naman talaga nakuhaan ng aral. Maingat kong inayos ang upuan bago umalis dahil baka maistorbo ko ang ibang mga estudyanteng pekeng nagbabasa. Mga gusto lang maman ng aircon, tss.

Pumunta na ako sa engineering section at sinimulan ko na agad ayusin ang mga hiniram kong libro. Ilalagay ko na sana 'yung mga libro ng may biglang bumangga sa akin. I was about to shout at him when he suddenly covered my mouth to avoid me from shouting.

"Sshhh." he said bago tinanggal ang kamay niya sa bibig ko. Wow, he's hopeless. How dare he put his hands on my mouth?

"Sorry ha, may tinataguan lang kasi ako. 'Wag mo sabihing nandito ako pag may nagtanong kung nasan ako ha?" he smiled at me.

"Seriously?" I looked at him with my annoyed face. I heard some footsteps walking towards us.

"Can I hug you?" he suddenly asked me. What the eff??

"No. Pervert." I was about to kick his totoy when he suddenly grabbed my legs. The hell is wrong with him?!

"What the fuck are—" I didn't finish my words because he suddenly hugged me at binaon nya ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya. De putang lalaki 'to, napakamanyak!

Susuntukin ko na sana siya pero hinawakan niya agad kamay ko at nilagay sa likod niya para magmukhang yakap ko rin siya. "Makisama ka naman oh, saglit lang. Hinahabol ako nung apat na babae, nagpapapirma ng jersey."

I rolled my eyes at hindi na pumalag. "Magpapapirma lang pala eh, why don't you sign it immediately para tapos na?"