My One Sided Love Story

Death of Me (EDITED)

Chapter Three: Death of Me
// Shady's Point of View //

My bag on my shoulder, I stormed across the street. Tears were messing up my makeup and pouring down my cheeks in uncontrollable streams. I stood outside the front door for a second, willing myself not to turn around. If I saw him looking after me, I thought I would scream. I pulled opened the front door and let myself in. I closed the front door again and set my stuff down.

I crashed down into the seat next to Forest and Destiny. I put my head on the table and wrapped my arms around my face. Tears were still streaming down my cheeks and dropped onto the table. I snuffled and Destiny put an arm around my shoulder. "What did he do?" She whispered in my ear. 

"He kissed me." I whispered back, my voice cracking.

"That's a bad thing?" She asked. I nodded.

 "He has a girlfriend, remember?" I told her and put my head back into my arms.

"Oh." Destiny said. They let me cry, and I drifted off to sleep, emotionally exhausted. I felt Forest pick me up and carry me up the stairs. He set me in my bed carefully. Though I didn't hear him leave.

I lied there until I was so stiff that I needed to move. I arched my back and lifted my arms above my head. My back popped five times. I opened my eyes and saw Forest sat in the seat at Destiny's desk.

"What are you doing?" I asked him. 

"I was waiting for you to wake up, I wanted to give you that explanation." he said. 

I sat up slowly. "Go ahead, I'm listening." I told him. Forest sighed.

"Last year, I was like my sister. I wore black, I listened to the same bands, I went to the same stores, only I didn't cut. Also, I'm gay." he started.

"At school people would call me names, and sometimes beat me up, saying 'You little faggot, go kill yourself!' or 'you don't deserve to live, go end your miserable life' I started cutting and one day, I jumped off of the roof. I didn't die, I was just really injured." He continued, rolling up his sleeves and showing me the scars.

"There were only a couple people, who didn't abandon me. Those people were Destiny, my parents, Jack, Azalea and May." He said, I sucked in a sharp breath.

"May was my girlfriend at the time, and now she's dating Jack. When she found out that I was gay, and about the attempted suicide, she broke up with me. I was such a wreck, I wouldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, the only thing I could do was cut." He pulled his sleeves back down.

"Last summer I started coming back to life. I started smiling, I got rid of most of my black clothes, I deleted all of my music, I started using scar cream, and other things. I still love May, and the reason she left me is because I was emo. So I've distanced myself from people who could be emo, because I'm afraid I'll get back into old habits. I thought that if I were to make you hate me, since you seem to be in the emo or punk subculture, that it would be fine if we lived together. I thought that I would be fine, but honestly that's not really who I am anymore, and nothing can make me go back. It was stupid of me to target you because of my past. And for that, I'm sorry." He finished.

I stared at him, my electric blue eyes looked for any signs of lies.

"We have a football game tomorrow, you should come." Forest said as he got up from the chair and put it back. He left and I crashed back down on my bed.

After listening to my music for about two hours I got up to take a quick shower.

I stripped off my clothes and was about to hop into the shower when Jack burst into the bathroom. "Ahhhhhhh!!!!!" I screamed so loudly that my own ears hurt.