My One Sided Love Story

Chapter Eighteen

I wake up and his smell engulfs me, I am tangled in his limbs, my head in his neck. I groan from being sore, not wanting to move.

I hear Jack sigh and squeeze me closer. The memories of last night come crashing down on me, and I start to mentally freak out.

But what my mind doesn't remember, is his confess of love for me, it totally slipped my mind as I curl into him and breathe in his smell of cigarettes, cologne and lavender.

"You smell good," I remark quietly, I feel the sides of him mouth quirk up, and I shake as he tries to hold in a laugh, but unsuccessful.

"Ugh I'm sore." I complain, twisting uncomfortably, claiming onto him, sprawling out, my face by his.

"Do you regret it?" He breathes into my ear, and I shake my head, my hair ruffling.

He sighs and just lays there, letting me squish him with warmth.

"I feel like we forgot something last night," Jack says suddenly, his eyes opening.

I think for a second before we answer at the same time, "A CONDOM!!"

I start to hyperventilate and my hands shake. Jack closes his eyes and breathes in and out deeply, probably thinking about the statistics of me getting pregnant.

"Well, it's too early for a test, so we'll just have to wait," I say, still shaking.

Jack opens his eyes and takes my hands in his, stopping them from shaking. I take deep breathes and get my breathing under control.

"Shady, even if you are, you don't have to keep the baby. You are in high school and I don't want you to be stressed out with giving birth and having to take care of a child while trying to graduate. It's okay if you get an abortion, I won't be offended or hurt at all, I just want what's best for you." Jack says, bringing his lips to my hands.

"Thank you," I breathe out softly, just loud enough for him to hear.

He nods and closes his eyes again.

After a couple minutes of a comfortable silence, Jack breaks it.

"So what are we?" He asks me.

"Hmm?"

"I mean, are we dating, was it a one night stand, are we friends with benefits or still just friends?" He asks, looking into my eyes.

I look at our entwined hands and worry on my bottom lip, thinking.

"It- it was a one night stand. As I have told you before, I'm not looking for another relationship and I don't want to lead you on where it isn't necessary." I explain, my mouth running off the lies and my heart breaking.

He diverts his eyes and looks down, slipping his hand out of mine and pushing me off him.

"I see, then goodbye Shady," he says as he throws on his jeans and jacket, forgetting about his tshirt that I'm wearing. He grabs his shoes and unlocks the door, opening it and standing in the doorway.

"I truly hope you aren't pregnant, and next time you want a one night stand, don't call me." he says coldly, slamming the door shut loudly, leaving me alone in his shirt, that still smells like the wonderful human being I just crushed.

I fall back on my bed, mentally kicking myself for what I just did.

What have I done?

Around 12 days later, Jack still hasn't talked to me.

That's when I decide to take a pregnancy test, just to make sure.

I ride my motorcycle to the nearest pharmacy and checkout, ignoring the weird stare I get from the cashier.