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chapter 4- I dont get along

ok run up to the 5sos bit :)

school is crap. like idk even know if im honest. i dont seem to get along with people. i try to be cool and get on at least with the Ri and Mia but they think they are cooler than me now that they hang around with other kids and just talk to me when they have to or i try interacting with them. its like im there when they need me but whenever i need them they dont notice. like they're not being horrible or anything they try to be nice when they dont wanna be around me but it's pretty obvious. maybe im over exagurating, so i just leave it . i kinda join in with other people i guess. all i wanna do is really listen to music. like this sounds so stupid but 5sos and music make me feel so much better. like i dont know but when i listen to them it makes you feel not alone.. idk anyway i normally try to talk to other poeple. it's ok but i feel like im pushing myself onto them. anyway i have this friend and we are ok friends. i know her from primary. we havent really lost contact like you would expect. im guessing its cuz she's on my bus. but goes to  different school. so because it's her birthday and her best friend can't come she decided to invite me to her birthday party. basically we are going to London to shop and "FIND DAN AND PHIL" ok im so excited cuz what if we do find them. apparently 5SOS ARE COMING TO LONDON LIKE MAYBE THAT DAY FOR SOMETHING !!! like the chances are pretty low to find them cuz now they are so famous and my freind doesn't even like them. but I WILL find them. i dont wanna mob them or freak them out cuz you can see on the videos they don't like / get annoyed. ik they dont show it or deny it but it is tiering. so thats my plan. agh im so excited

i was supposed to go with my firiends shopping on saturday but i freaked out. like that sounds weird but i just couldn't. although they are my quite good friends we were supposed to be going in a 5. Ri and Mia and Lola and hannah. Ri and Mia used to be really close to me but that changed and now they are best friends. Lola and Hannah are pretty good friends and they get on so much better than I ever do with anyone. i just was scared they would have ignored me or i was akward and everyone thought i was weird and then they started talking to eachother and i would be alone. i didnt want that to happen. so i just didnt go. ;/ its ok tho i watched 5sos and some you tubers.