A Mystery To Me (The Vamps fanfic)

Chapter 10....I'm....I'm ready to talk

Chapter 10

*BRADS POV*

I started quietly singing to her that calms most people down.

"Ohhh her eyes her eyes make the stars look like they're not shining.
Her hair, her hair falls perfectly without her trying.
She's so beautiful and I tell her everyday.
Yeah
i know I know when I compliment her she won't believe me.
It so it's so sad to think she don't see what I see.
But every time she asks do I look okay I say
When i see your face
There's not a thing that I would change because your amazing just the way you are
And when you smile the whole world stops and stares for a while." I quietly sang to her in her ear.

She looked up at me and cracked a smile.

"Sorry I can't remember the rest."

She buried her head in my neck again and we just sat there hugging and singing to each other. Well I sang to her anyway.

"Do you want to speak about what's wrong."

She shook her head.

"Sorry." She said

I smiled at her trying to say it was fine but I was desperate to know. She got off my lap and turned on the tv. She hooked Netflix up to it.

"You can watch the vampire diaries with me as no one else will and I'm starting it from the beginning." She smiled at me.

"Oh can I? Am I aloud to?"

"Yeah.. Pllllleeeeeaaaaassssssseeeee Bradley."

She said said fluttering her eyelashes. I nodded and went and leaned against the pillows. She got in bed next me and we both cuddled. Only because she was still upset she just wanted to calm down. Every now and again she would smile at me trying to convince me she was okay. But I could tell that she was upset I'm not stupid. I looked over to the clock to see we had been up here for 2 hours.

"How many episodes have..."

I said turning to her but as I looked at her she was asleep in my arms. I guess crying tires you out.

*CONNOR'S POV*

I walked upstairs seeing as Brad and Rach had been upstairs for 2 and a half hours. I walked into the room to see them in each other's arms. She had stained cheeks evidence of crying. Why didn't she come to me? I knocked on the door and both of their eyes started fluttering. They looked over to me with a quizzical look on their faces.

"We have a surprise for you." I said looking at the both if them.

"Who? Me?" She said pointing to herself.

"We are going on tour!!!"

"Oh." She said sounding disappointed.

" what's up."

"Nothing I'm proud of you."

"No what's wrong."

"Nothing Connor. I'm proud of you well done." She said in an annoyed tone.

"Rach seriously."

"Connor just leave it! Where's Tristan?"

"In his room."

She walked out of the room and I didn't understand what I had done. I looked over at Brad and he was confused as well. His eyebrows came together and left wrinkles on his head. He didn't know what happened either.

*RACHELS POV*

I ran into Tristan's room. He was sat with James on his bed.

"I'm......I'm ready to talk."

James came up to me and gave me a hug.

"I will protect you if you need me to, just remember that. We can talk if you need to."

I walked over to Tristan and sat next to him.

"When your ready." He said smiling at me.

" I'm tired! Tired of liking the wrong guys. Tired of no one giving me a chance. Tired of worrying about the people who wouldn't care about me if the world depended on it. I'm tired of texting people just to be ignored. Tired of fake friends. Tired of backstabbing bitches. Tired of thinking things are gonna be different yet them never changing. I'm tired of putting in 100 % and getting 10 % back! I'm tired of giving out chances just to be let down. Tired of broken promises. Tired of let downs by people I cared about the most. I'm tired of self centred ass-holes who only manipulate the situation from they're perspective to suite themselves!!!! I'm tired of getting my hopes up for things I should know are never gonna happen. I'm tired of liars. I'm tired of being angry and pretending round people that I'm not close with. I'm tired of being extremely different. Im tired of crying myself to sleep. I'm tired of all my friends having the perfect figure and me not having that figure. I'm tired of dreaming the perfect life. I'm tired of not being able to let go and forget about certain things/people. I'm tired of feeling worthless and empty inside. Tired of people bitching about me behind my back. Tired of pretending to be happy when all I want to do is cry. Tired of being unloved and ignored. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of being told what to do. Tired of trying to live up to everyone's expectations when they're to high. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of being afraid. I'm tired of solving other peoples problems. I'm tired of having to start the conversation. I'm tired of knowing someone I care about is going to get hurt when I can't do anything about it. I'm tired of being laughed at. I'm tired of admitting something just to be laughed at. I'm tired of not knowing the answer that's in my heart and the one that's in my head. I'm tired of not being able to make up my mind. I'm tired of having to choose. I'm tired of being ignored by my family. I'm tired of the people i love the most putting themselves first and not caring about anyone else. I'm tired of putting everyone else before my self. Im tired of people not seeing me for me. I'm tired of being used. Tired of them seeing me as his other half. I'm tired of not being able to talk to my dad. I'm just tired. I'm f***ing tired!!"

He looked at me like he knew something I didn't.

"Your never going to be alone? I promise you. And by being used do you mean that girl that wants a date with Brad or James. I saw the message."

"I will be alone what about when you go on tour? And uh yeah she threatened me."

"I know I saw and I thought you were coming with us."

"What."

"Your coming that's what con said."

"Oh my god really?"

*TRISTANS POV*

Shoot Connor didn't tell me he didn't tell her.

"CONNOR!!!!!"

I shouted. I could tell everyone in the house heard. He came running in the room. Panic was evident on his face. I crossed my arms and looked at him in the eye.

"Sorry man I thought you told her."

I saw Connor walking over to us.

"Don't be upset. I'm sorry. You don't have to come."

"Don't have to come why wouldn't I want to come? It's going to be amazing. We are gonna party all night. Woohoo. Boo yeah." Rachel yelled while I tried to disguise my laugh as a cough.

He smiled at her giving her a hug.

"We are leaving tomorrow."

"What tomorrow that's not enough time to pick want onesies I want to take. Tristan come help me pick." She demanded grabbing my hand dragging me along the hall. I gave Connor a smile while he rolled his eyes at his excited sister dragging his bestfriend/bandmate down the hall to pick what onesies to take on tour. When did life get so complicated. When did people moods start changing from devastated and used to excited and happy in a minute. When did Connor's sister become my best friend?
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Hope your enjoying it :) going to do an double update as this is mostly speech and because I might not be able to update Saturday. As well as this, this chapter is rubbish and the next one is better.