Babe, I Love You

Hanging

"I'm sorry."

The short and painful line she least expected to receive from Bin.

'What the fuck!!! Why Bin, why!? After waiting for how many godforsaken days, that's the only thing you could say to me? You don't have any care to explain what happened to you? What happened to us? Just your injustice sorry?'

She's sure that even she didn't hear an explanation from him yet, the pictures she saw already says it all.

Her world is slowly crashing with the thought that what if Bin only approached her to satisfy his lustful needs? What if he only used her as his pastime while waiting for his marriage? She wants to know about his relationship with that woman even before they tied the knot. How did he sneak time for a month to be with her? And so on and so forth... Her heart is pumping so fast again. Her whole body is screaming again and again.

Yejin can't utter a single word but only to let out the flowing tears from her eyes. She's hurting and getting angry at the same time.

Her mind and heart are starting to battle... 'Should I respond? No, don't. So what should I say? Should I curse him? No. I can't. I don't know what to say.'

She hits her left chest using her right hand since it feels like a block of concrete is drying in her heart. The man she thought who loves her is ripping her off. The man she thought is different from the others is leaving her hanging. The man who promised her nothing but felicity and harmless love got married to a different woman. Now, where are those bullshit promises? Everything was a lie. A big fucking lie.

While her breaths are getting heavy along with her cries, she heard her phone beeped again.

It's from him.

"Yej, can I call you?"

No.

Again, she can't.

It's impossible for her to talk to him at this state. Her whole body is trembling. She even doesn't want to face the reality yet that Bin is no longer calling her his "baby"— her favorite word hearing from him since the day they started dating. The word that she didn't know will be taken away from her that fast.

Yejin stood up and throw her phone to her bed. Slowly, her feet are bringing her to the farthest corner of her room while covering her face with her hands. Her back hits the wall and her knees were bending making her sits on the floor.

Bending on her knees, she tardily hugs them and rested her head. She never stood up. Never had any strength to chew a meal for the whole day. She stayed like that for God knows how many long hours while crying her heart out.

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6:30 AM

Yejin woke up from the annoying alarm tone of her phone. She didn't realize that she slept on the cold floor until she opened her swelling eyes.

Her head is spinning. She felt dizzy. She felt so weak.

Yet, she took all her courage to stand up by leaning her hands on the wall for support. She walks slowly going out from her room and went to the kitchen to drink a glass of water as she felt discomfort on her throat.

After gulping the last drop of water, she stuck her eyes straight to the wall.

"You need to face this battle, Yej. It's not something new. You were used to this." She told herself and put the empty glass on the sink.

Trying to start her day as normal as possible, she went to the bathroom to take a warm shower. After she freshens up, she went to her closet and dressed up to her usual office attire. She also put some red tint on her lips and a light shade of concealer to cover up the dark circles around her eyes.